Endless Guilt

Brief Overview

These words express the deep scar that burdens one of Edens few publicly known immortals. An endless guilt was experienced by him, and him alone as the only survivor of a massacre.

General Overview

A young templar named Paterick barely survived the slaying of every one of his religious brethren during an event known by the Abyssal Order as "the Templars Reckoning," when the Templars were tricked into eating the flesh of the faithful. By eating the flesh of another sentient being, all Templars were then denied any right to pass through heaven's gates upon death, wounding them not only mentally, but morally as well. Once they were denied their right to a peaceful afterlife, they were captured by the late King Vincent II and prosecuted for their crime. All Templars were later burned alive, all but young Paterick.

Endless Guilt...
Between the buried and me, lie countless words unspoken...
Weaved within the dirt between, ageless promises... All broken.
Each breath I take is tainted with guilt, my hands stained crimson...
Each day they fall again, their blood re-spilled...

And yet I remain.. Broken, but only in the mind.

Of all the damned, the bruised, and the blessed...
Of all the deserving, only I stand before you. The unworthy...
I stand upon the shattered hopes of all the rest, their dreams decaying beneath me...
Within me rots the faithful's flesh...

Before you I stand, the last one left...

With every beat of my heart, I am taunted by my sins...
My honor bleeding off of me, my values stripped bare...
Every breath an eternity, every end just re-begins...
Their screams stuck in a loop, Hell's symphony on repeat...

Time has hollowed my soul, creating an abyss of regret...
My soul forever stained by an army of shadows...
Weary bones now bend beneath the weight of my debt...
Fooled by false kindness, my morals have now shifted...

Now, only I remain. Untouched by time...

This ever living nightmare from which I cannot wake...
Chips away at my mind, eating away at what little remains...
I am reminded each moment of my gravest mistake...
Paving the road to my torment, with only the best intent...

Before my eye's the sky itself rained upon the unholy...
Yet here stood the unworthy, bathed in the glow of her retribution...
And so this is what I've become, a whisper of what I once was...
Yet my faith will roar louder than any sound to be heard...

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A statement recorded by Paterick Reklan after the Templars reckoning. It is very rare to find any scrolls related to these words as his true thoughts were said to express the trauma of survivors guilt after the horrors he endured at Komor during Geodeas Retribution, and the loss of all Templars aside from Paterick himself.
After he reformed the New Order of Templars, Paterick had all record of this speech erased from the temples, denying the events he had lived in order to create a new chapter in history. One where he could bring to light to glory of his Geodian faith without granting power and pride to the The Abyssal Order.
It is said that only one copy of "Endless Guilt" was beyond Patericks reach, however, no one knows the location of the rumored scroll, and much like his innocence, the scroll was lost to time.