Journal Entry #16

Helio'Ra 1003 YAR

Today... was odd, as everything seems ot be nowadays in my life. Judas and I have addressed religious matters together before – it is my right as High Priestess.

While we have certainly grown closer over the past few years, I never thought he’d consider me a true… confidant, especially after my rejection of his proposal. After nearly a week of being at the periphery of my day-to-day life, he suddenly pulled me aside to discuss a sensitive personal matter. I am uncertain how I should take it. Perhaps Judas should be awarded for catching an Oracle off guard. Or perhaps Caliban saw fit to play a joke on me.

Is it odd when the god you are the other half of – who you refused to marry – requests advice on how to handle a spurned ex-lover? When Caliban and I would drink sake under the full moon, we often discussed personal matters… but they were never about lovers.

After recounting his tale – which I feel would be rude to share even in my private recollections – he asked my opinion. He must have sensed my confusion and been amused. I have never seen him… smirk like that. He doesn’t do that. It was both endearing and… humbling. I am a High Priestess yet I was reminded that he is a God. What advice could I possibly give?

Yet I gave it anyway, perhaps to spite him and that new smirk. I find it’s always wise to be gentler, especially to those who are young and naïve.

I was that way once.

But, while what I said applied to this young ex-lover of his…. There was another reflected in the shine of Judas’ eyes. She shares the same silvery-white hair as me… but shorter and scruffy and void of all adornment. She is thin, sickly, tired, confused, and weak… I feel as if I can look into her eyes. She is far away. She is different. Yet… she felt like home.

Whoever you may be, my words are for you and for whomever holds sway over your being.

Dysis Judas