Entry 10: The Royal Visit

Cassander has a fiance, he is here and he is too kind and too nice… I hate him. I hate him. I.. I can’t hate him, he is perfect. An absolute angel and he would be so good to Cassander but… I am selfish, an evil thing that cares only for herself and her own concerns. I want him. He is mine. He is mine and I would care for him and protect him always. This ache.

How can I compete? I have nothing to offer. I don’t even have a crown to give him. Would his father even accept me?

He wishes to take my country.

My Crypha.

I can’t think. I can’t think. I can’t think.

What am I going to do? I can’t lose everything. Not when I’ve come so far and have so much farther left to go. Someone help me… please….