Last thoughts

I am leaving this behind in the event I don't make it home. We got the order a fortnight ago, I didn't want to believe it. The front lines...I always knew it was a possibility but I don't think I ever fully understood what it would mean. As we ride for No Airs land I think back, my mother, my brothers, my wife. Chances are I never see them again. Layla and I still want to have a child, my brothers wanted to become knights. I may never see any of this happen. The sky has turned gray, I am having trouble breathing, this place, it has no life.
 We sit around the fire, sharpening blades and fletching arrows. My armor has grown heavy, my shoulders ache and my head is sore but win or fail, live or die, I have to do this. For Layla, If we don't win this war we loose everything, She looses everything. If I am to die than I die for her. If I fall tomorrow I hope this note finds you my love. You are my world and I would gladly fight these elves alone than let them get to you. I love you Layla.