Fade

Looking in the mirror I can see that I have faded. While not transparent yet, I have a sort of dull halo that you can sort of see through. It isn't much, maybe a few centimeters, but it's definitely bigger than yesterday. No one else seems to notice, but then that's not much of a surprise. No one pays enough attention to me to notice anyway.
It all started about a week ago. I looked at myself in the mirror and I thought I was a bit fuzzy. At first I thought maybe I just needed to get my prescription checked or maybe I needed to clean my glasses. I cleaned my glasses, then the mirror, but even with all that I still looked a bit fuzzy. When I looked at myself directly I didn't notice anything so I decided not to worry about it. I went about my life and probably would have forgotten about it entirely, but when the teacher took a class picture to share with our sister school in Tokyo for the project we were working on, I thought I looked a little blurry when no one else did. I'm pretty sure I hadn't been moving.
Maybe I'm turning into a vampire. They can't see themselves in mirrors or reflective surfaces, right? No one notices that about them. I don't recall being bitten, but then maybe you wouldn't if you were hypnotized. Still, I feel a little faint at the thought of blood same as usual. I don't feel any urge to bit anyone. I don't feel super strong and I'm no more averse to sunlight than I ever was.
When I looked this morning I could tell that the fading is happening more quickly now than it was last week. It's gotten nearly 50cm from my edges now. I still don't see any difference when I look at me and no one has said anything. I don't feel any different. I don't have more or less energy. I don't even feel anxious about it really, more curious. When I put my hands together in the mirror they turn into one big fuzzy blob. I can make all sorts of interesting shapes. Indistinct, but interesting.
If a reflection is a version of you and that version is fading, do you think that maybe it means that you are losing yourself? Or is it maybe that you are becoming more centered in yourself? As my reflection is fading and blurring I find that I care less about how I look. I mean, I can't see anyway so why worry about how my hair looks, or if this is a good color on me, or really what does it matter what I am wearing? I think I am looking at myself less and less and seeing myself more and more if that makes any sense. I no longer know what others see when they look at me, so I let go of worrying about it and instead I pick things to wear that are comfortable or have pretty colors or styles I like. I brush my hair but otherwise let it be however it is. It used to take up so much time to get ready to go out. Now I can be ready in just a few minutes. It's pretty liberating.
Today all I saw in the mirror was an indistinct blur. I stopped taking selfies weeks ago. While the photos of the walls were interesting, NOT, I have nothing to prove about me or my life anymore. Anyone could take those photos and share them. There's no proof it was me. Here's the thing though, IRL people are starting to notice me, to talk to me. They are stopping me to ask about what I am doing differently because I seem to glow. They are wanting to know my secrets.
My secret? Fading.