Hasim Yilan
Death didn’t take
Well actually dying this time was a strange experience, although I feel bad that I didn’t tell my wife about the dragon. I didn’t want her to think our son was in more danger than she knew. I guess that means I am fully committed now to ending it. Yay.
I truly worry for the state of that battle, no matter what happens one of us will die dealing the final blow and I cannot let it be me. I am sure this group might try to find a way around this but as the only one who has tasted death before I am certain it will not be so simple. Even just being this close to the city it feels wrong, like the gods have no sway here at all. I have dealt in enough death that I know when it is coming, and I can feel in in my bones. Blood will spill this day, whose blood though remains to be seen. I really fucking hope Cecelia has a plan, I do not wish to kill her too. If anything brings comfort it is that for the time being my boy is safe in a whole other realm. Hopefully we can keep this land intact for him to return too, and for the rest of my family as well. I swear to all the gods though if I fucking die in this fight then these ass holes I’m with better make sure the boy is taken care of.
Just in case
I am writing this in the event I do not return from our next battle. We are going directly into the maw of the beast to save my son so it’s a reasonable assumption. If I should die here know that I am at peace with it since this will not be the last time this world has to deal with me. I go now with my wish to save my wife. She is truly the greatest thing to ever happen to me and without her I am not fit to be a man let alone a father. Grimaldus, you have pledged my son to your order and I trust that it is now a matter of honor that you will keep him safe. Your homeland seems a wonderful place to raise a child and they would actually be able to handle him, if he is anything like me that is not an easy task. I know the boy has some great destiny and I can think of nowhere better to prepare him for it than with your people, I certainly would not be able too. Traveling with all of you has been fun, it’s nice to work with people that I can tolerate. Don’t worry Inera, I plan on beating the shit out of Dekar for leaving you when I find him. Inara I hope to see you again one day after I bring my wife back with me. She is a strong willed and passionate woman who would never let anyone tell her what to do, especially not me. I think you two would get along very well. Rowan I hope we will meet again too, I can’t wait to share the countless adventures we will both surly have. If my boy is a chosen one like you and gains even a little similarity to yourself, then I will be a proud man when I return. Cecelia I know your goal is impossible but so is mine so I am no one to judge. Just be sure this is not just what you feel you must do and this is truly what will make you happy. Revenge is fucking great but if it’s against the whole world you will never get to savor it. Alucard you seem fine. We haven’t gotten to know each other much but I do thank you greatly for the foundation you and your companions laid for how I will rescue my love.
I’ve actually written so so many letters like this in the past, it’s nice to know this one will actually be important to people beyond who gets my shit.
Good luck with the dragon, hopefully I won’t be seeing any of you too soon.
I understand the tradition of spoils from the fallen, I have partaken myself many times. I ask only that you leave one of my daggers with the boy, he will need all the help he can get, and it will help me find him when I return.
Thank you all for not killing me in the woods.
Ding dong the bitch is dead
6th of Camince, 1485
Finally, the bastard is dead. He deserved every second of agony he endured, now I also know where my boy is and who else is getting their throat slit next. I can’t believe Master Sabbah was betrayed by the entire inner circle, glad I already killed most of them already. Don’t worry master, the rest of those worms will join you soon in death and you can make their souls regret ever sneezing in your direction.
Next stop will be the temple, I still apparently have an unseen addy within the nine that might help. Plus the hero Kent might be there, I don’t know if I believe all the slander they said about him but either way it will be an honor to meet him.
Nothing is going to stand in my way, I will save my son, make sure none of these bastards come after him again, and find him a proper home. After that I will help this band of dangerous idiots kill that dragon bastard. If the one who lands the final blow dies then I don’t mind, I will find my love in the fugue and drag both of us out of hell myself. If Alucard could do it then it can’t be that hard.
Safe for now
I am grateful to the elf. Thanks to her I was able to see my son is safe, at least for now. Ronesh seem to have not made any moves towards him yet, there would be a clear money trail if you know where to look. Tuteshk hasn’t made a play either, if he goes anywhere then people will take notice. Most likely the old man is in the desert with the rest of his kind. Dekar mentioned one of his artifacts is with the untouchables. After what happened with the vampires I’m sure it will be a simple task to get his sword at Tuteshk’s throat. For now I wait because it’s likely they plan on letting me lead them to my son, I mean it’s what I would do. The play now is the jinn and searching for signs of Tuteshk in the sands. If my plan for this works then the cursed city is the perfect location to go after.
Self Fulfilling Prophecy
Everything went wrong and my life was ruined, all because some dirty old desert hermit told them to do it. This entire fucking time, that was the reason. Geleceği arayanlar ondan asla kaçamazlar. I will bring this prediction to fruition. If they dare even touch my child then the desert will seem merciful compared to my wrath. There is no place they can hide from me in this world or whatever the hell it actually is that comes after. I will hunt them down and make them regret every moment in their lives that had lead up to this. I will cut every tendon and let them have a head start running, I will rip out their tongues and let them beg for their lives, Onları kendi testisleriyle besleyeceğim. If they think my son is the prophesied Ouroboros then they are sorely mistaken. I am the head that will devour the serpents tail, it is my vengeance that will bring an end to them. If a single drop of my boys blood hits the ground then that will only hasten their agonizing deaths.
We are all going to die
Why are we still doing this honestly?! We just fought a fucking untouchable and some giant physical form of death or something and we aren’t even in the fucking city! Why is this our problem? So these more important fucks decided they don’t want to deal with this so now we have to do it? I am not dying for a serpent damned tree and the least sexy neck biting possible. I will help these suicidal idiots as long as I can, but I will not compromise my vengeance if it comes down to it. May the sands be merciful to those who did not bring water.
It’s always for money
Everything still revolves around money, always no matter what job I’m on or what I’m doing, the deciding factor is money. Half the contract I would take were always about someone with debt, and the other half we’re almost always about someone doing something to get more wealth. Now even though I’m not in the serpents, it’s still wealth that acts as the eveeyman’s sultan. Hopefully this dragon is the last crazy thing I have to do for months, then I can focus on my revenge.
One Down
The first link in my broken chain of vengeance has been forged. A priest lies dead, his gospel swallowed by the sands. The will of his god proved weaker than the blade in my hand.
A dead god for a dead man. He received all the mercy and hope that he gave others. May the sands consume the ruins of his fate, and leave nothing of his wretched existence behind.
acı içinde ölmek ve unutulmak.
Letter translation
To start I want you to know how deeply you are loved. Sending you to be raised by another was the most difficult thing in my life besides loosing your mother. I should probably elaborate on that. Your mother and I were the targets of a dark plot and unfortunately your mother did not survive their transgressions. I do not know how your new life has shaped your feelings of me. Maybe you idolize me, or most likely you hate my filthy guts. Either way know that I have done and will do anything to protect you, no matter the cost. I admittedly am not a good man. I have lied, stolen, cheated, and done a fair bit of murdering, but I have always kept my word. Now I swear this to you my boy, I will track down the serpents who took your mother from us and make them pay. By the time you read this, I will have gotten vengeance for the both of us. So don’t become consumed by it as I must be. As your father I will not pass my burdens unto you. Live a good life. love a beautiful woman, or man I’m certainly not one to judge. Above all become the man I know you can be, one better than I ever could be. If I am still alive I hope to meet you. Your grandparents have a house in Kurvajai, I will wait for you there once my work is done.
The only memento I have for you is this nail. The instrument that both ended your mother’s life, and saved yours. Keep it and remember that in every shitty thing that exists in this world, there is the chance to use it for good.
With all the love I have left in my heart, your father,
Hasim Yilan
For my son on his 15th Birthday
Başlamak için ne kadar derinden sevildiğinizi bilmenizi istiyorum. Seni bir başkası tarafından büyütülmeye göndermek, anneni kaybetmek dışında hayatımdaki en zor şeydi. Muhtemelen bunu detaylandırmalıyım. Annen ve ben karanlık bir komplonun hedefiydik ve ne yazık ki annen onların günahlarından sağ çıkamadı. Yeni hayatının bana karşı hislerini nasıl şekillendirdiğini bilmiyorum. Belki beni putlaştırıyorsun ya da büyük ihtimalle pis bağırsaklarımdan nefret ediyorsun. Her iki durumda da, bedeli ne olursa olsun sizi korumak için her şeyi yaptığımı ve yapacağımı bilin. Ben iyi bir adam olmadığımı kabul ediyorum. Yalan söyledim, çaldım, aldattım ve epeyce cinayet işledim ama her zaman sözümü tuttum. Şimdi sana yemin ederim oğlum, anneni bizden alan yılanların izini sürüp onlara ödeteceğim. Bunu okuduğunda, ikimiz için de intikam almış olacağım. O yüzden olmam gerektiği gibi onun tarafından tüketilme. Baban olarak yükümü sana bırakmayacağım. İyi bir hayat yaşa. güzel bir kadını sev ya da erkeği kesinlikle yargılayacak biri değilim. Her şeyden önce olabileceğini bildiğim adam ol, olabileceğimden daha iyi biri. Hala hayattaysam seninle tanışmayı umuyorum. Büyükanne ve büyükbabanın Kurvajai'de bir evi var, işim bittiğinde seni orada bekleyeceğim.
Senin için sahip olduğum tek hatıra bu çivi. Hem annenizin hayatını sonlandıran hem de sizinkini kurtaran enstrüman. Saklayın ve bu dünyada var olan her boktan şeyin onu iyilik için kullanma şansı olduğunu unutmayın.
Kalbimde bıraktığım tüm sevgiyle baban,
Haşim Yılan
