Mini-Session Response: What Atka Wants
Atka lied in bed, thoughts racing between seeing Imperius, screaming at Orion, sorting things out between Nomad and Illidrex… She knew she had to square with her inner demons, which seemed to be external devils – herself included. Could she reconcile that every devil she had come into contact with had, in some way, tried to influence her to feel, think, do a certain thing–most of them in petrifying ways? Simply because the results had turned out in her and the party’s favor due to Imperius’s suggestion/role/influence, should that directly exclude the very “nature” that seems to become them all?
“Us all,” she corrected and threw the pillow over her face. How could promise to end Nomad but save Mamnen for ultimately the same crime? Foolish girl, she thought. You can’t befriend everyone; there will be those you like who don’t like you. Her observations–the facts:
Orion has been her companion.
Orion has had Imperius aiding him for a long time.
Imperius is a devil.
Orion and Atka descend from devils, as tieflings–Atka more recent in the bloodline, as her mother is half-blooded.
Nomad admitted to working and living as a devil.
Nomad admitted to a change, and a risk of regression.
Imperius suggested Atka embrace hate as fuel for prejudice and not experience.
Insofar, evidence suggests that it’s not devil and angel–just like Mamnen said all along. Devils appear to do good–but it had never been Atka’s contention that they were impervious to good, just impervious to altruistic intention.
She threw the pillow off of her face and rolled onto her side, sighing loudly. Atka saw Illidrex’s three cards circling her mind’s eye. Elementalist, Enchanter (reversed), and Missionary. What did she truly want? She knew she didn’t want to hurt the people she loved, she knew that she wanted Mamnen to be safe, she knew that she wanted not to fear the storm that Illidrex was talking about just because she heard it roar. The Missionary discussion weighed on her a bit. Illidrex had suggested that she find what she wanted or not, and bring that out to the world around her.
Atka squinted into the darkness and attempted to recall those late nights reading in Neverwinter at the Hall of Justice. She had found some old prayer books that were likely from prior to the priests of Torm’s and Lord Dagult’s moving in for Tyr. Very intriguing, and Atka had always remembered loving the idyllic beliefs but didn’t dare pursue more about Tyr, as she would’ve directly opposed Lord Dagult. The prayer had suggested that Tyr considered them all as family, who encouraged them to try and want to be perfect, who valued trust, courage and love toward one another. That had always made her think of how she would’ve wanted those in her life to feel around her.
Did she dare ask for guidance from a god she’d never spoken to?
As if she’d asked rhetorically, she said aloud, sitting upright, “Oh, wise and mighty Tyr, if you’re listening to this humbled and confused tiefling mercenary, I ask for your directive guidance. I’d like a nudge somehow on how I break the need to fulfill two perceived expectations of me–be a natural devil, or be a natural angel–when I don’t have sure-footing on a natural me? Please, please consider this appeal to your wizened, altruistic nature as an honest cry for help.”
Atka opened her eyes, leaned back onto her hands while sitting upright on the bed, and waited to feel or perceive anything.
Atka's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Ire the Carnal Eviscerator (16 years old)
18 Nov 2021 04:14:50
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A Horrid Nightmare (27 years old)
18 Nov 2021 04:17:51
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Finding Floon - Take 1.
23 Jan 2022 05:22:12
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Oh, my lord. Oh, my heart.
29 Mar 2022 07:04:41
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Renaer vs Atka - Take 1
29 Mar 2022 08:21:51
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Powers for the Tieflings
04 Apr 2022 07:55:49
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Renaer vs Atka - Take 2
09 Apr 2022 06:26:38
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Mamnen Alone
12 Apr 2022 09:09:59
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The Last Breath (far future...or is it?)
13 Apr 2022 07:14:24
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The Request Heard 'Round the World
14 Apr 2022 01:30:33
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Session 6: Cleaning house/Coming clean
17 Apr 2022 02:32:25
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Mamnen's Research
20 Apr 2022 01:41:50
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Homage to Atka
21 Apr 2022 03:03:05
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Mamnen's Visitor
21 Apr 2022 05:25:16
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Severed Connection
21 Apr 2022 11:28:57
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A Fitting End
23 Apr 2022 06:03:50
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A New Pastime
23 Apr 2022 09:40:40
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Ire's Ire: Mamnen Alive
25 Apr 2022 08:46:48
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Session 7: To reconcile self or him?
17 May 2022 10:28:27
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Session 8: What am I doing?
29 Jun 2022 10:22:32
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Session 10: Just Who...
05 Sep 2022 06:15:28
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Mini-Session Response: What Atka Wants
01 Oct 2022 04:38:25
18 Nov 2021 04:14:50
18 Nov 2021 04:17:51
23 Jan 2022 05:22:12
29 Mar 2022 07:04:41
29 Mar 2022 08:21:51
04 Apr 2022 07:55:49
09 Apr 2022 06:26:38
12 Apr 2022 09:09:59
13 Apr 2022 07:14:24
14 Apr 2022 01:30:33
17 Apr 2022 02:32:25
20 Apr 2022 01:41:50
21 Apr 2022 03:03:05
21 Apr 2022 05:25:16
21 Apr 2022 11:28:57
23 Apr 2022 06:03:50
23 Apr 2022 09:40:40
25 Apr 2022 08:46:48
17 May 2022 10:28:27
29 Jun 2022 10:22:32
05 Sep 2022 06:15:28
01 Oct 2022 04:38:25
The major events and journals in Atka's history, from the beginning to today.
Mini-Session Response: What Atka Wants
Atka lied in bed, thoughts racing between seeing Imperius, screaming at Orion, sorting things out between Nomad and Illidrex… She knew she had to square with her inner demons, which seemed to be external devils – herself included. Could she reconcile ...
02:48 pm - 01.10.2022Session 10: Just Who...
Session 10: Just Who Am I Fighting With? The rainy battle is relentless and fierce. The skeletons, zombies, ghostly apparitions in the forms of tables and even figures, and cultists seem to seep through every crevice. I am relying heavily on my devil m...
07:41 pm - 04.09.2022Atka Furious
She was no longer scared. She was furious. Atka did not know Ire’s true name, but she knew her brother’s and she’d be damned if it was going to be two-on-one against Castiel. That, and she wasn’t certain he was in league with Ire, or with Castiel,...
10:07 pm - 25.07.2022Fears: Mamnen v. Atka 2
Atka stopped short on her trek out of the library, a hand on her abdomen. “Mamnen?” she said aloud. She could feel him! He was there again within her. She fell backwards back into the library, staggering to steady herself. He was there. “Atka, wh...
10:25 pm - 21.07.2022Ire Freed
Mamnen dug his fingers into his palm of the hand with the rune, practically shaking in anger. Why he was so angry after that dreamwalk was unknown to him, except the facts that 1) Atka didn’t seem afraid and 2) she seemed wholly convinced that he was be...
01:18 am - 20.07.2022Angel Hands
Atka grimaced slightly as she found herself on the floor of the tavern. It was closed, but a few of her comrades dotted the place. Odd that they had let her sleep there, she thought, and placed a hand on the ground to push herself up–finding a paper ben...
11:47 pm - 19.07.2022Fears: Mamnen v. Atka 1
Mamnen left the backroom of the library in his black attire, tail wrapped satisfactorily around his waist after another pep talk from Ire. Atka would certainly be ready for this next target. He knew that she must have been reeling after finding out about ...
05:40 pm - 17.07.2022That Devil Doesn't Bargain
Atka shivered, still alone in Ilanir’s home, wondering if his show had been so good that he couldn’t get away from it to come to her. She knew she should’ve just gone with, but she was in no emotional condition after her night terror about Mamnen an...
08:12 pm - 06.07.2022Mamnen Meets the Musician
Mamnen sat comfortably at the bar, the soft music in the background quiet, yet impressively intricate. The head player and singer was, in fact, very talented. He could see why she was taken with him, supposing of course the personality matched his physica...
01:15 am - 06.07.2022Atka’s Night Terror Twin
It was not long before she had sought out the physical comfort of anyone. Lord Dagult was in the far away land of Neverwinter, his son close but not close, and while she knew it never was intended to be a game or consolation…she knew if she sought out I...
09:28 pm - 03.07.2022Mamnen's Retribution: Death of Kira Jerty
“Yes, I’ve found her, Kira, and you’re not going to like what I’m going to do.” The elder elf tensed a bit in her seat, fully donned in armor, weapons, and soldier’s attire. They had been training today, Mamnen guessed, and that was her rea...
12:39 am - 28.06.2022Influence Attempt #4: Threat (Mamnen’s Retribution Begins)
Influence Attempt #4: Threat (Mamnen’s Retribution Begins) Atka sighed, lying under the pretty star again outside of the Yawning Portal, feeling free for the first time in a long while. A smile graced her purply face softly as she knew that somewhere...
12:32 am - 28.06.2022Session 8: What am I doing?
There was an explosion outside our new tavern and "home." I raced out among the rest of the party, and my eyes fell shocked to the scorched red hair of the boy whose father I called...no, there isn't time for sentiment! I raced to Renaer Neverember, on...
12:00 am - 28.06.2022Session 7: To reconcile self or him?
Atka flipped through the journal briefly as she nervously waited for the message to come back from the Mage's Guild. She thought about what Nomad had said to her about not wanting to involve her in his battles, which is why he wouldn't show his face to he...
10:28 am - 17.05.2022Ire's Ire: Mamnen Alive
Mamnen gasped and sputtered, eyes wide and drinking in a bright blue sky above him, evident that he was back on Faerun. He ran his hands wildly across his chest, gasping audibly instead of breathing–breath not catching because of his obvious panic–and...
08:46 am - 25.04.2022Influence Attempt: Threat (Life)
Atka was sitting cross-legged on her bed and waiting. She was not meditating, but she was most certainly aware of her surroundings. He was here now. He felt his presence. “Hello, brother,” she stated. “You heard me? How?” “I know I’m dr...
01:39 am - 24.04.2022Bootlicking #3: Ingenuity Focus
Mamnen trailed a finger in a circle boredly on the first naked woman’s back as she kissed down his bare chest and abs. The second made quick work “cleaning” the insides of his ear with her moistened, soft tongue. Both were enraptured by him, but it ...
01:06 am - 24.04.2022Influence Attempt: Threat (Bonds)
Atka stared at the ceiling of her room in the Yawning Portal while lying on the small mattress and sighed, still hopelessly sad about Vereella. It had been days, and the only things that perked Atka up about it were in the pit fighting ring, in the mug of...
11:36 pm - 23.04.2022A New Pastime
Mamnen tossed a few more purses into the back room of Mammy’s Place and shut and locked the door, so anyone entering the shop couldn’t find his stash of riches. He expected Ire any minute of any day now to teach him the new skill, although he had to a...
09:40 pm - 23.04.2022Bootlicking #2: Might Focus
“Well, Mamnen, you have been quite busy, haven’t you?” “No more than usual, uncle,” Mamnen shrugged, less than impressed with Ire’s surprising appearance in his apartment. Ire’s laugh did snap the young tiefling apprentice and quarter-nep...
08:32 pm - 23.04.2022Loss of Vereella
Atka rolled her shoulders and yawned, wishing she didn’t feel so stressed still. Rescuing Floon and Renaer, seeing and leaving her siblings, and not hearing back from Lord Dagult yet were wearing on her psyche more than the battles in the sewers. Inhale...
07:06 pm - 23.04.2022A Fitting End
“Mammy, I can’t believe you threatened her!” Vereella exclaimed. “She just came back to us, and you’ve driven her away again, probably for good!” “I did not threaten her, Vereella. I was trying to warn her what would happen if she contin...
06:03 pm - 23.04.2022Influence Attempt: Appeal to Talents
Mamnen shifted uncomfortably on his bed, room of course locked as he knew Vereella could burst in at any moment. He really wasn’t sure how he was supposed to do this… Ire had just told him to do it, and while disappointing him was not really a concern...
02:56 pm - 23.04.2022Bootlicking #1: Self-Awareness Focus
Mamnen was unnerved at first by the weekly pop-ins from Ire Mennith to just gain a sense of how the flame was burning. It didn’t take long–maybe a few months–until he began to anticipate them. The more time he spent at the library researching the ou...
06:41 pm - 22.04.2022Silver-Tongued Tiefling
“I’m just an anxious brother. I can’t help it if I need to know where you are at all times,” Mamnen stated and eyed the back of his hand with a unique boredom that only he could embody. Vereella rolled her eyes at him. “I’m not six anymore,...
03:22 pm - 22.04.2022Insatiable Greed
“It was not curiosity that killed the goose who laid the golden egg, but an insatiable greed that devoured common sense.” - EA Bucchianeri Mamnen stood in the wake of Ire’s visit, now gloved, and suddenly remembered trapping Vereella in the back...
12:55 am - 22.04.2022Severed Connection
Atka rolled over on her spot on the ground in the designated outdoor sleeping area. She liked to sleep outside, “under the shiny star” as she called it. She couldn’t lie on her stomach tonight for some reason. The discomfort was too great to handle....
11:28 pm - 21.04.2022Mamnen's Visitor
Mamnen's heart was in his throat thumping away for the second time that day, except this time he wasn’t staring into the face of an angel that could end him without heed. No, this time he stared into the face of a tall, lanky red-skinned devil with thic...
05:25 am - 21.04.2022Homage to Atka
Homage to Atka It took almost three hours before Mamnen “came to” after the tense, angry blackout after Atka left his apartment to find the Ring Master. Once he did though, full of regret and despair, he charged out in the darkness and searched the...
03:02 am - 21.04.2022A Friendly Visit
Mamnen unlocked and opened his apartment door, shutting it behind him and grumpily walking to the kitchen to make himself a plate of something to eat. He heard voices coming from Vereella’s room and assumed that she must have someone over. Not really in...
01:42 pm - 20.04.2022Mamnen's Research
Mamnen, being over twenty and employed in a specialty now, found himself more confident than ever in researching his mother Jone’s disappearance again. It was likely the only way he’d see his sister again, he knew, since he knew he went looking for he...
01:41 pm - 20.04.2022Session 6: Cleaning house/Coming clean
A lot had happened, Atka realized after Illidrex was led off by the guard, Saith and Barnabus (the detectives)... Angus seemed to move everybody along and started cleaning up the place. Atka couldn't get the memory of Lif Calloway's poltergeist's messages...
02:32 pm - 17.04.2022The Request Heard 'Round the World
Atka bounced her leg in the small room, wondering if he’d actually show up. Her anxiety told her that he wouldn’t, but he had always come through for her when she needed him. Knowing that Nomad would surely come logically, yet doubting it anxiously, w...
01:30 pm - 14.04.2022The Last Breath (far future...or is it?)
Atka exhaled deeply, focused on her brother. She knew it was frustrating him that the mantle she had found, borrowed from Sadachbia’s knowledge of magic protection, prevented him from using his magic on her. Mamnen wouldn’t be able to just freeze her ...
07:14 pm - 13.04.2022Return to the Mission
Atka stormed down the streets and corridors of Waterdeep, heading straight for her “homebase” of the Yawning Portal. She was cold. She was hungry. She was livid. Mamnen had really messed up the last few days. Damn him. He was frightening; he was power...
03:26 am - 13.04.2022Mamnen Alone
Vereella had done a poor job of making this shirt, he noted as he adjusted it over his shoulder for the fourth time since starting on his way to the library. The neighborhood was still bustling over the rumor that there was a tiefling participant in the R...
09:09 pm - 12.04.2022Visit with the "Family"
The apartment hadn’t changed much since the last time she’d been there. Except the colors. It seemed the artist Vereella (their younger sibling) had sproused the place up somewhat. Lots of abstract paintings, sculptures, and knickknacks. Was it impres...
09:08 pm - 12.04.2022Irk the "right" way
“Before we do this, I need to change. You did a number on my clothes today,” he added, standing up. “Come to my place. We can eat with Vereella and collaborate on what we’ve discovered since last we talked.” “I could use a cloak myself,”...
09:07 pm - 12.04.2022Mammy's Place
The shop was small, yes, but it bore an extravagantly crafted wooden sign hanging over the door: “Mammy’s Place” written across it with a pair of hands cupping the form of a handaxe. “You run your own place now?” “Yes,” he confirmed and r...
09:04 pm - 12.04.2022Renaer vs Atka - Take 2
I dragged myself back into the Yawning Portal late that night. Mamnen was clearly losing it and gaining something significant at the same time. I had a terrible feeling I was going to have to fight him, subdue him, or worse... My feelings are usually not ...
06:26 am - 09.04.2022Powers for the Tieflings
“I said, Atka, STOP!” Atka suddenly felt herself being unable to move, mid-run. Her eyes were stuck, her body rigid, but instead of crashing to the ground, she just hung midair. Without warning combined with haste, she was thrust back the way she c...
07:55 pm - 04.04.2022The Loose Leaf Paper
Atka swung her legs over the rocky hillside overlooking a cloudy, cantankerous sea. The journal from her brother lay softly on her legs open to a page with all the names Ire the Carnal Eviscerator could possibly go by. She placed one hand on the open book...
06:12 pm - 01.04.2022Renaer vs Atka - Take 1
Fuck Willard, I thought bitterly as I began to march from the property I had been raised at since I was 14 years old. Willard shouldn’t talk that way to a guard anyway–isn’t that above his status or pay grade or something? I was all huffed up. And r...
08:21 pm - 29.03.2022Oh, my lord. Oh, my heart.
I snapped awake as I felt an object pelt the back of my head. Not cognizant of my own horns in that between asleep and awake state, I could feel the perpetrator beside me leap back out of the way of a prick. “How do you sleep like that?” he asked,...
06:41 pm - 29.03.2022Practice for Rainar
Atka stared at herself in the mirror of her vanity at the Yawning Portal. She ran through all the things she wanted to say to that incompetent, arrogant, something-something BOY. Speaking aloud into the darkness, she hushedly hissed, “I’ve been emp...
05:33 pm - 24.02.2022Finding Floon - Take 1.
It all started with a quick visit to the Skewered Dragon (where Volo said he and Floon went). Illidrex knew where it was, so we knew where to go. However, as we approached, a large crowd was surrounding the place. Angus and I were able to see over the gua...
05:22 pm - 23.01.2022Fighting Styles - (33 years old)
Atka tossed her hair back over her head and horns, as well as throwing her shield onto her back over her pack and squaring off with her opponent. She gripped her great sword with both hands and bent her knees, toes of her front foot wiggling a bit in her ...
04:28 pm - 18.11.2021The Reality Letter
Atka sat at the table in Ilanir’s small cottage, staring at the letter in her hand. Somehow, he’d found her. Here. He had known somehow, or maybe not that she’d be here with Ilanir, but that she would not be doing the mission. Late on her shopping v...
03:43 am - 18.11.2021Ilanir's Move
Stop pretending you’re shy; just go dance, Atka thought to herself. Since meeting Ilanir and discovering the music scene, she had been seeking out every performance she could in the taverns around Waterdeep. None were quite as captivating—the liquor i...
07:44 pm - 17.11.2021The Ring of Dex
Atka Marduk sat in preparation chamber that she was ushered quickly to after her participation and loss in the obstacles. The room she was in was damp, which she didn’t really like. It reminded her of wet days growing up where she was stuck inside. She...
04:34 am - 17.11.2021The Ring Master's Obstacles
After the Ring Master ascended and disappeared up the left stairs, Atka looked around the lounge she was in. She didn’t know the obstacles, but she wasn’t going to be unprepared. She lifted one of the blankets off the back of the couch she was on and ...
04:32 am - 17.11.2021The Ring Master
“Thank you, thank you, thank you!” exclaimed an overly excited tiefling. Atka had been wondering the main street as the sun was setting for close to an hour, and the street once bustling was actually quite bare now. She found one person walking, a bla...
04:24 am - 17.11.2021Ire the Carnal Eviscerator
Ire the Carnal Eviscerator This journal details the account and research done by Mamnen Marduk, son of Amnon and Jone Marduk, Moon-brother to Atka and older brother to Vereella. In it I hope to discover what I can about the missing and devil family to...
04:15 am - 17.11.2021On the Road to Waterdeep
Mamnen sighed loudly. “Are you going to stop at every opportunity to smell a flower?” “Ts! That’s not what I’m doing. I’m looking for—Ooh! Found it!” Atka squealed happily and plucked a small white, peony-looking flower and shoved the ...
04:11 am - 17.11.2021Atka Marduk: A Brief History
“And down, and over, and arch, and over, and over, and lean!” Atka was grinning horn-to-horn as her brother Mamnen’s sword guided her in the dance of defense and offense. They had been practicing for years, yet he still said the directions she ...
04:06 am - 17.11.2021Call Me "Ideal"
“Call me Ideal. That is how I want to be known. My real name isn’t of consequence, as it doesn’t serve me. It doesn’t serve the unit. Oh? The unit? I’m a soldier, though I was a mercenary for a while. I’m not really interested in getting in...
04:02 am - 17.11.2021They Call Me 'Devil' - Revisited
Atka stood stiff. Whatever was going to happen to the party was going to happen in the blink of an eye, and she knew she had to act fast if she was not going to fight in front of the nobles. They knew her. They knew she “couldn’t.” They’d tell him...
01:44 am - 17.11.2021Lovers in the Dream-state
Atka and him. They were back in the room that was so incredibly powerful for her work. Yet, tonight, he hadn’t called her there for work. There was business to attend to, and she knew she needed to take control this time. “Where did you come fro...
01:42 am - 17.11.2021Finding Sarissa
Atka was “ripening” into a beautiful 27ish year old tiefling, Kira the five-generational elf by her side always. They had been marching covertly (in the dead of night) for some time, and her benefactor hadn’t told her what she was doing there yet. H...
01:40 am - 17.11.2021A Horrid Nightmare
Atka was asleep in her bed after the festivities of another mission accomplished. She knew that her true mission was still a bust, yet she could feel she was getting closer. Would he appreciate her more if she accomplished it? Would it break the anhedoni...
01:37 am - 17.11.2021Accidentally Caught
Atka strolled down the streets of Waterdeep looking for something, anything that would suit her sweets craving. Why did they make the roads so difficult to navigate? There should be a fruit stand by the library, she thought bitterly. She hated and loved b...
01:36 am - 17.11.2021Music to the Ear
Atka had always walked to her own beat, not really rhythmic or even aware of a pattern. She was graceful enough, sure; she could balance her way across a log fallen over a river or work her way through an emotional crisis between two parties (so long as ...
01:27 am - 17.11.2021Miscellaneous Letter (undated)
You say you see everything under me. You’re the one whose color’s gone from vivid to gray—and that’s near my natural color! Watch me start a fire in the middle of your shadiness. I’m pissed just truly off this time. I will sort things out FO...
10:41 pm - 14.11.2021Miscellaneous Letter (undated)
Those things you whisper in my ear between our assignments, I'm burning my clothes up! I know we're up to something, but we're not at the same time. And I'm okay with that. You've got your reasons...and I've got mine. You looked so sad when I brought h...
10:39 pm - 14.11.2021Miscellaneous Letter (undated)
There’s an urgency that I’m feeling for the first time. I just have to wonder something as I lie here alone about to dream again: do we dream about each other at the same time? This may be the only way that I can truly talk to you. I had a dream last ...
10:37 pm - 14.11.2021The list of amazing people following the adventures of Atka.
Social
Family Ties
Mamnen - twin brother
Vereella - younger sister
Jone - mother
Ire - half-uncle (devil)
Religious Views
Acolyte of Sarissa Runesblood
Social Aptitude
Awkward at times. Language doesn’t translate perfectly the first try.
Speech
Fast. Deliberate. Loud. Huge diction.