35th of Vanm,
Today was exhausting; the whole party was unnecessary.
I requested that my father stop hosting these extravagant birthdays since I was twelve, but he refused to budge. At least Carmella seemed to enjoy herself.
I don't know how she enjoys these; being stuck in a crowd with the attention of strangers is a nightmare for me,
and when Duke Rio placed his hands on my shoulder, I damn near had a panic attack.
Lady Helena has been helping with the trauma, and I have been getting better, but I'm still terrified by touch.
Sometimes I wish I could go back and kill the bastard, but unfortunately I cannot.
I think I will end it here; there is nothing left for me to write about, and I would rather not think about that disgusting tutor.