The Nightmare Never Ends Part 5

I am having a good day today. It has been a while since I've been to Tan'Ayya. Apparently nobody recognized me. Or maybe they do and they just don't bother. Maybe someone is giving me a chance to go without trouble. To think, I thought you'd gut me if you had the chance, Izha. Maybe not all snakes are bad after all. I've gathered some coin from the fallen and I decided to spend it on nothing other than entertainment. Good food, a warm bath, some new clothes, some fun games and activities... Books too, of course. My armor came off for a change, at least, partially. Nobody knew that I had my chainmail on under that shirt. I rented a rather expensive room for tonight and it is one of the few times I can't wait to fall asleep. I had something to drink too! I hated the taste, though I do not blame those who drink much of it. The effects that come after are rather... Interesting. I believe someone made an attempt at romancing me while I was enjoying my meal at the inn. I realized long after he was gone. He was not my type, as the others would call it, I think. What is my type, though? I am not sure. Romance is the one topic I have never bothered with before. Father once said it would come naturally when I grew up. Perhaps it's just not the time yet.
 
The lamp-light keeping my room awake is slowly dying out and I don't feel like relighting it. I have been hearing strange noises from the room adjacent to mine. I believe I know what they are doing but I dare not think about it anymore. Maybe I will sit down in this chair for a bit longer in the darkness of my room once the light is gone. I absentmindedly locked the door and window and trapped both with a few vases behind them. Something to wake me up if I need to. My maul is resting... Somewhere here. A strange feeling, to not care where I put my most trusted weapon. I can always just return it to my hand, yet I have seen others treating their weapons with respect, as if they were alive. Time to rest. I will sleep in tonight, for tomorrow holds more traveling for me.
 
( Splotches of blood adore the following page )
OF COURSE! WHAT WAS I THINKING! CURSED SNAKES! CURSED TRAITORS! I WILL BRING DOOM TO ALL ONE DAY! DOOM TO ALL! HOW COULD I LET THIS HAPPEN? HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO CARELESS!? THE NIGHTMARE NEVER ENDS! THE NIGHTMARE NEVER ENDS!