Bless this mess

Part of me misses the Maw. When Ori mentioned I would see Calry again, I didn't think they meant NOW. Seeing her was nice. She's usually quick to leave as suddenly as she appears. Nothing against that, in fact the reason I came out here in the first place was due to taking a page out of her book. Home didn't feel like home. Even something that I should be used to, like riding a boat, doesn't feel the same.
 
At first I just tried keeping busy, my mind even got back into the swing of things, but I could feel the scars start to ache. When I went below deck I found Calry feeling cooped up and anxious. You would think I'd be the one that was comfortable enough to be on a boat to give advice, to help. Turns out once again, we're both troubled.
 
It's difficult to say how much of her showing up is her checking up on me, or her trying to seek company. Might be both. Ok, yeah we might need help.
 
Sivrit confronted me about it. Well, about Calry being a dragon. I think it says a lot when I didn't consider it a big enough deal to bring it up. She's probably the best thing from back home. I feel guilty about not telling the others anyway. I decided I'll let them all know once we start travelling and make camp.
 
Well that didn't work out.
 
Calry, brash as usual ended up transforming into her actual form to stretch out. Probably freaked everyone else out, I thought it was neat. Though I'm worried about her. She may not seem like it at first, but she's pretty sensitive about some things. It's got me thinking.
 
I didn't appreciate some of their questions though, they were a bit too pointed. I know there's a lot wrong with me, but I think I'm trying my best. Doesn't feel like I'm doing a good job though. Do any of them feel like that? I feel like that, but there's a lot. There are moments where I wish she didn't pull me out of the drink. Left me to be picked at by gulls.
 
Still haven't seen worse yet, and I doubt Rosohna has it either.