Nerves

Marlaia is gone. It seems that she left to figure some things out for herself. I'm disappointed to see her go before we could become better friends. I wanted to learn more about her as I slowly am the others, but she had to do what she had to. I hope it works out well for her, and that she fixes what she intends to. Her wishing me the best in finding out who I am is another reminder at the fact that I'm sitting on a way to possibly find that out yet havent. I know that Fryd advised waiting since we dont know where the gold came from, but I think that I'm done waiting. After this job we are on is done, and we get back to the city I am going to pay a visit to the Illmater temple and take the kindly priest up on his help. If the money needs to be repaid somehow then I'll take care of it.
 
"What will I find out?", I can't help but wonder to myself. Making up my mind to do this sooner really cements it into reality, and makes it more real. I could end up hurting the friends I've made, or worse. Will I still have friends? Or will I not care? Another question that I have is "why has noone come to find me?". Surely I have family and probably at least one friend that I don't know about, but I haven't seen anything to suggest that anyone is looking for me. Heh would I recognize it even if I did though? Who knows. How long have I been tied to that ring? How long have I been gone from my home? Is anyone even looking for me? All of this makes me nervous to find the answers and possibly end up with more questions. I don't have time to really worry about it now though. I need to finish this job and then I'll worry after I get my memory back. If I get it back that is.