Dear Cyne,
I know you too well, you know. You're standing at the desk, hands either side of this letter. You probably already know what it says, don't you? The gist of it, at least. You're too clever by half.
I'm sorry. I wish I could have said my farewells in person. I wish we could've had just one more moment, but... I don't know if I could have done this, if we had. I wish this didn't have to happen. I love you. I love you so much. My beloved brother. My protector. My hero. My best friend.
I think you should hear, in my words, what happened.
You were dying, we both knew it. You kept telling me that it'd be okay, that you were a Champion, so it would be fine... but you know I can tell when you lie. Neither of us want to rule an empire, after all, and I know you worried about leaving me the burden of it, even with Ashlyn and the others to help. I wouldn't be a very good empress, though. My curse and my prophecy are really the least of it. You've been through so much! My brave brother, cutting down assassins and fighting on the front lines of evil. The people love you, all of you, as you are - for the hero you've been to them, despite the way so many treated you so badly.
You're strong enough to lead them. I'm not. And you'll do what I couldn't in defeating prejudice. Maybe it'll be enough to stop Drast's anger, if we're really lucky, but I doubt it.
So... when you were fading, I looked everywhere for a way to stop it. I thought about the Champions, if they could do anything, and... there's only one way to seal Tenaerul. We've known it since the beginning. A Champion's death. And I wasn't going to very well ask Azyel now, was I? Nor any of the rest of them. And especially not you.
I knew the price of the choice I made the moment I made it. I would make it again a thousand times if I'd had to. I never needed anyone else from the moment you started sneaking over to me; I had the best big brother anyone could ever ask for, and with this.. I could finally do something for you, too. If our roles were switched, if it was me that lay dying and you knew the way to stop it - would you really do anything different?
I can't imagine what trickery Asmodeus is working behind the scenes to answer a desperate call to any god that would grant me my wish, but to save you, I am honoured to be his Champion. My soul is not his, so please, do not worry for my spirit! I'll be up in whatever realm Pharasma sends me to, waiting for you to one day catch up. Maybe I can find Albion and Taerien! We'll talk and talk and talk and I'll tell them all of the grief you carry for them.
...I wish you'd told me. I only learnt after I took the mark, in a prophecy that crashed down on me. The last of them, really. It makes.. so much sense. You wore the grief so much heavier, and I don't think it.. ever left you, did it? Oh, Cyne... Albion would have understood. You had no way to know.
By the way, please find Kazric after this. He's helping me do this, one last time, because.. I don't want to be alone at the end, and he's the only one I can trust to let me. He's certainly made enough sacrifices himself, hasn't he? We had a very, very long talk. And there were a few drinks. Just a few for him, and only one for me. Just enough courage to get me through the end of this.
I asked him what it's like to die. He gave me a hug. His pains were brief, he said. You don't hold onto them when you're dead. Pain is for the living.
We're leaving for the edge of the barrier as soon as I finish this. The plan is that he'll take me there, flying high through the stars, and he'll... help me hold the blade steady. So I can repeat Ypolita's pact. So my time can end, and yours will endure.
We don't really know how it works, but... if he can, he'll bring me back to you. I want to rest with our family, in our ancestral crypts - so please make sure wherever I rest, there's room for you as well, alright?
Rely on the others when I'm gone, will you? Licia made me a promise to look out for you, and you know Azyel can be trusted to be a good friend. You have Ashlyn now, too. Our great-great-etc-grand-aunt, Champion of the sun itself. Ashlyn and Mery, Aniks and Celuriel, Licia, Kraia, Cid, Kazric, and all the rest of them... and that's that group of misfits alone. Don't forget your friends, please. Let them love you like I love you. You're never going to be alone again. Even if you think you are: I'll be keeping an eye on you (when it's not weird, of course)!
I've... left letters for our parents, too. They're under my pillow. I know our father has problems with you, but I hope he can push those aside when I'm gone. I wish everyone could just love you as easily as I do.
Part of me wants to keep writing forever, so that you'll send for me, and someone will interrupt what I'm doing to bring me to you, and maybe by some miracle you'll be sitting up and smiling at me with your real smile. I'm never going to be ready to say goodbye. But I have to. I have to.
I love you more than I can ever, ever say or write. Whether you're just my dorky older brother, or Cyne the edgy shadow prince, or Emperor Aneirin Cynos Elyan of the Aletheian Empire and All her Lands and Seas: I love you.
Goodbye, Cyne.
Forever your dearest and best and most loved little sister,
Alysia
P. S. I'm telling grandfather that you're the one that set fire to his favourite chair when we were children! AND I'm telling him that you destroyed the replica when he'd already gone!
P. P. S. Kazric helped me cut off a lock of hair. It's in a little bag, in the drawer. If you keep it close, then I'm never really leaving you. Because even if you DO lose it, I'm still not. We'll just be on different planes for a while. I'm sorry, this is.. very long. I love you.
Again: goodbye.
We still feel the waves of this in the game now. Hell I wasn't even in the campaign when it happened. This hurts. It is pain condensed into an article, and your reading is so tremendously powerful. Thank you.