Amara Yelwynn
Tea Party?
We've been in Samudara for a few days now. On our first night here, I decided to go to the flats. V told me about a place I could potentially develop my idea of a meditation/relaxation/self help business. They sell shampoo? Whatever. I talked with the main business leader about my ideas and truthfully, I'm not sure I want to go back. He gives me sketchy vibes, and I don't think he'd allow my business to run the way I want to run in. I also ran across a dinosaur fighting ring! I saved a baby stegosaurus and named him Pickles. He's absolutely ADORABLE! I love him already and I can't wait to train him and love him. As I was heading back from the flats, I felt like I was being followed. It was Malenti!!!! I haven't seen her since I ran away from home. It was such a relief to see her. She gave me an invitation to a party being hosted by Zahir soon. She's under his employment and seems...happy? Which makes me happy for her, of course, but I can't help but have my concerns. She's still a servant, but she says Zahir treats the servants of his house well, and that she's happier than she's been in years. She has a lot of responsibilities, and she's even the one in charge of getting this party together, which I understand is a huge honor. We caught up over drinks at a nearby tavern. Afterwards, we parted ways and I returned to the party. I handed over the invitation, and they were immediately suspicious. I get it, it's Zahir, but at the same time, it's Malenti! She wouldn't do anything to cause me harm. We were best friends! Everyone else was trying to make plans for how to potentially sabotage this party, do some spying, whatever, but I left. I want NO part in that. I want to support my friend. I trust her completely.
Laying Low
Dear Diary,
There's a lot that's happened in my life. We're lying low in Avarice right now and I decided to pick you up to ease my mind. So many people have come and gone, yet here I am. Do I deserve to be here? That is yet to be determined. Daisy is in Oshama with Ami. Ana is off doing her own thing. I'm very concerned about them both. They're the ones I've been closest to on this journey I've undertaken, and now they're...gone. It's strange. Gabriel and Balthazar are still here. Zido is gone, back at his guild. I haven't seen Black in ages. Yet isn't that the cruel fate of a long, blessed life from being an elf? A monk? To see those I love come and go throughout the ages? Even more so once I finish my journey and meet the chosen of the Phoenix. Become a Master. I'm so close to the end of my journey, yet it seems it's still only just beginning. I still struggle with finding where I belong in this strange world. How can I help those in need? While here in Avarice, I know there are slaves being sold, traded, abused. But I can't help them without risking the safety of my friends. Is it right, that I'm in hiding while strangers around here suffer? I could do so much to help. Of course, there's also the question that resides in my mind - what's even the point of helping sometimes? No matter what I do, I'll never be able to help everyone. It makes me wonder the point of trying to help when there's always going to be suffering. I mean, I guess if my people could be taken down, the amount of suffering would lessen, but there are always evils in the world. Is this my purpose? Is this why I've been blessed with a long life? Why I decided to join the monastery? A long life allows me to help as many people as possible. But can it ever be enough to atone for what I did when I was younger? The sins of my family?
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