Sebastian Journal Has Feeling Conversation with Milton

HRH Tells Milton about his feelings. Full Entry Below

October 7 Tuesday   It took a long time but I finally called Milton about the whole Alexander issue. I don't like how quickly he picked up on what I was getting at. He said nothing surprises him. I don't know what that meants. But he asked me if I thought I might be different. I told him I'm broken. He told me I'm not. I'm a different world. God I can't even write the world. It's three fucking letters. I really am broken. I tried to put a little distance between Alexander and me last week but I think I just hurt him. I don't want to hurt Alex. I started going to the pool on Thursday nights for free swim/dive too. It gives me a little bit of peace. There's a big dance coming up ant the end of November. I don't think I'm going to go. All the other boys have female friends. Maybe I'll ask to go home for the weekend.