Selenaia Perlis
Selenaia Perlis
Mental characteristics
Personal history
Selenaia Perlis, from humble beginnings as an orphan, found herself in a relatively kind orphanage run by a caring couple in Goldenhaven. Despite the challenges of her upbringing, Selenaia's spirits remained buoyant, fueled by the simple joys of camaraderie and the nurturing environment provided by the orphanage. Her story took a tragic turn when she decided to venture into the service of Lady Silvius, hoping for a brighter future.
Initially, the opulent surroundings of Silvius' mansion seemed like a dream to Selenaia. However, the dream swiftly turned into a nightmare as Lady Silvius revealed her malevolent nature. Selenaia's attempts to resist mistreatment only worsened her plight. Punishments escalated to a point where any defiance was met with severe consequences. Selenaia, having endured physical and emotional abuse, reached a breaking point, attempting to escape her torment.
Her escape, unfortunately, was met with brutal retaliation. Locked away and subjected to unspeakable horrors, Selenaia's once lively spirit was shattered. The trauma rendered her a shell of her former self, existing in a state of hollow obedience and emotional suppression. The carefree girl who once appreciated simple joys and forged bonds with fellow orphans now moves through life as a tragic reminder of the darkness that can engulf even the brightest spirits.
Sexuality
Selenaia is straight.
Accomplishments & Achievements
Maintaining Bonds
Despite the emotional and physical isolation imposed on her, Selenaia manages to hold onto the memory of her friends at the orphanage and the couple who cared for her. These connections, although distant, are a testament to her enduring spirit.
Adaptation to Cruel Realities
In the face of relentless mistreatment, Selenaia has adapted to the harsh and cruel realities of her situation, showcasing a capacity to endure suffering that is both remarkable and heart-wrenching.
Silent Compliance
Selenaia's ability to maintain a facade of obedience and compliance in the face of Lady Silvius' torment is an accomplishment born out of necessity, allowing her to navigate her tragic circumstances.
Failures & Embarrassments
Broken Rebellion
Selenaia once attempted to resist Lady Silvius' commands, resulting in severe consequences. This failure serves as a constant reminder of her powerlessness.
Failed Escape
In a moment of desperation, Selenaia tried to escape from the mansion, but her attempt was thwarted. The failure of this escape has only intensified her sense of entrapment.
Betrayal of Self
Each day that Selenaia submits to Lady Silvius' will feels like a personal betrayal. She sees her compliance as a failure to protect her own dignity and freedom.
Eroded Self-Worth
The systematic degradation Selenaia endures has eroded her sense of self-worth, making her believe that she deserves the mistreatment she receives.
Forgotten Dreams
The dreams of a brighter future and finding love have been completely overshadowed by the dark reality of her existence. Selenaia's failure to achieve these dreams haunts her.
Isolation from Loved Ones
Selenaia's isolation from her friends at the orphanage and the couple who once cared for her is a constant source of sorrow. The inability to maintain those connections feels like a personal shortcoming.
Mental Trauma
Physical and Emotional Abuse
Selenaia endured prolonged physical and emotional abuse, leaving deep-seated trauma that manifests in nightmares, flashbacks, and an overwhelming fear of authority figures.
Betrayal and Trust Issues
The betrayal she experienced when she tried to quit and was subjected to brutality has left Selenaia with severe trust issues. She struggles to trust even those who may show kindness.
Loss of Agency
The complete loss of control over her life and choices has instilled a profound sense of powerlessness in Selenaia. She grapples with the trauma of being reduced to a mere pawn.
Isolation Trauma
Being isolated from her friends and the caretakers at the orphanage has led to feelings of abandonment. Selenaia battles with the emotional trauma of losing her support network.
Hopelessness
The constant cycle of mistreatment has cultivated a pervasive sense of hopelessness in Selenaia. She struggles to envision any possibility of escape or improvement.
Dehumanization
Lady Silvius' dehumanizing treatment has deeply scarred Selenaia, leading to a distorted self-image and a persistent sense of worthlessness. The constant humiliation continues to exacerbate this trauma.
Intellectual Characteristics
Diminished Cognitive Function
The relentless abuse and trauma Selenaia endured have taken a toll on her cognitive abilities, leading to difficulty concentrating, memory lapses, and diminished problem-solving skills.
Impaired Decision-Making
The constant fear and uncertainty have impaired Selenaia's ability to make decisions confidently. She second-guesses herself and is often indecisive.
Avoidance of Intellectual Engagement
To cope with her circumstances, Selenaia actively avoids engaging in intellectual discussions or activities. The trauma has created a mental aversion to stimulation.
Morality & Philosophy
Submission to Authority
Selenaia's harrowing experiences have instilled in her a deep-seated belief in unquestioning obedience to authority figures, as a means of self-preservation.
Desperation for Safety
Her primary moral compass revolves around doing whatever is necessary to stay safe, even if it means sacrificing personal values or participating in morally questionable acts.
Inherent Distrust
The betrayals and abuse have bred an inherent distrust for others, making it challenging for Selenaia to form connections or believe in the goodwill of those around her.
Internalized Guilt
Despite being a victim, Selenaia carries a heavy burden of guilt, internalizing the blame for her predicament. This guilt shapes her perception of right and wrong.
Isolationist Outlook
Selenaia's philosophy centers around self-isolation. She believes that distancing herself emotionally and mentally from others is a form of protection against potential harm.
Taboos
Eye Contact
Eye contact, especially with those in authority, is a taboo for Selenaia. It represents a vulnerability she wishes to conceal, stemming from the past trauma she endured.
Expressing Personal Desires
Selenaia refrains from expressing personal desires or wishes, considering it a forbidden act. The notion of wanting or aspiring to something has been conditioned out of her.
Emotional Outbursts
Any form of emotional expression, be it joy, sadness, or anger, is strictly forbidden in Selenaia's world. Suppressing emotions has become a survival strategy, making her emotions practically non-existent.
Remembering the Past
Reflecting on or remembering her past life, especially moments of happiness or innocence, is a forbidden act for Selenaia. It's a painful reminder of what has been lost.
Personal Connections
Forming personal connections, even superficial ones, is a taboo Selenaia imposes on herself. The fear of potential betrayal or harm enforces her isolationist stance.
Personality Characteristics
Motivation
Avoidance of Punishment
The fear of punishment, both physical and psychological, is a powerful motivator for Selenaia. Her compliance is driven by the desire to avoid the severe consequences that disobedience brings.
Savvies & Ineptitudes
Savvies
Memory Retention
Despite the traumas she's endured, Selenaia possesses a remarkable ability to remember details and instructions, a skill developed out of necessity to fulfill Lady Silvius's demands accurately.
Ineptitudes
Critical Decision-Making
The constant fear and trauma have impaired Selenaia's ability to make critical decisions. When faced with choices that could alter her circumstances, she often freezes or makes hasty, uninformed decisions.
Emotional Suppression
Selenaia struggles with suppressing her emotions, finding it challenging to express genuine feelings. The environment of fear and control has made it difficult for her to convey authentic emotions.
Likes & Dislikes
Likes
Silence and Solitude
Selenaia finds solace in moments of quietness, away from the chaos and cruelty that characterize her daily life.
Dislikes
Confrontation
Selenaia avoids confrontations, preferring to keep her head down to avoid drawing attention.
Excessive Noise
Loud and chaotic environments trigger anxiety in Selenaia, making her uneasy and on edge.
Virtues & Personality perks
Compassionate Nature
Despite her own suffering, Selenaia retains a compassionate core, even if it's buried deep within, making her empathetic towards the pain of others.
Unobtrusive Service
Selenaia excels at providing her services without drawing undue attention, making her a discreet presence in Lady Silvius' household.
Vices & Personality flaws
Emotional Detachment
Selenaia has become emotionally detached as a coping mechanism, distancing herself from her own feelings to endure the hardships imposed on her.
Crippling Fear
Her experiences have instilled in her a deep-seated fear, making it difficult for her to stand up for herself or make decisions that might attract Lady Silvius' displeasure.
Suppressed Will
Selenaia's willpower has been suppressed to the point where she often hesitates to act independently, having learned that resistance only leads to more suffering.
Personality Quirks
Submissive Nodding
Selenaia tends to nod obediently, almost involuntarily, as a reflex to any directive or question, a habit formed through prolonged submission.
Social
Mannerisms
Downcast Gaze
Her default posture involves keeping her gaze lowered, avoiding direct eye contact as a way to express submission and avoid potential conflict.
Evasive Posture
She tends to adopt a physically evasive posture, subtly moving to the side or stepping back to create distance, especially when in the presence of authority.
Automated Movements
Her actions often appear automated, lacking the natural spontaneity that comes from personal agency, a result of the strict control exerted over her.
Speech
Subdued Speech
Selenaia speaks softly and with a submissive tone, carefully choosing her words to avoid potential displeasure from Lady Silvius.
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