After the bank job...

Today was fucked! I can't hold my Fucking hands still gods be damned! This was just a simple job. get in the vault, grab all the cash we could. get out.
 
What the fuck went wrong? did someone rat us out? I'd fucking kill them. can't believe I got out... or how I got out, I... changed. completely.. I mean. into someone else. I was so scared when the cops busted through the door. I just closed my eyes... ready to die. but when I opened them, the pigs were rushing past me, toward the others... shooting on sight. the other hostages were all staring at me, wide-eyed. like I was some kind of freak... I looked at myself... I had changed my whole body to look like someone else. again, What the fuck? After it was all over... the shooting stopped. They escorted us all out. I can't believe they didn't check my backpack... I had 50,000 dollars in there! I don't know what happened to the others... Rodney... I hope you got out... I'll admit I didn't give much of a shit about the other three. But still, they were part of the family. speaking of... I already got a text saying I should probably stay away from the den... Thello is probably ready to kill me himself after fucking up this bad. and then I just fucking run away?! the fuck is wrong with me? I ditched my damn family.. a fuck... Damnit Rae! calm down.
 
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Breathe, Breathe. okay. Halfway home I noticed my hands were changing back. I found an ally to bounce down. It only took a few seconds... still don't know what the fuck it was... and I still don't look like I did... why? I dunno. I'm afraid to try to do it on purpose. maybe I can't do it on purpose. Whatever.
 
For now, I just need to figure out what happened to Rodney, I don't know what I'd do without him. Fuck, he'd know better what to do with all this cash... I've got some thinking to do...
 
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