Thu 1st Jul 2021 07:08

Fuck

by Marushka Dragomir-Belmont

I only have a couple minutes to write this. I’m writing it as we move, actually. Fuck this. Fuck Trevor. And fuck his gods-damned lycanthropy.
 
I woke up this morning alone. Well, the party was there, but my husband was not. I panicked. Elaine said that he is still alive, but that is all she knows. When I was about ready to go try and find him, I could hear footsteps approaching. Kasimir, bloodied and angry, arrived and threw a bundle of all of Trevor’s gear and clothing at my feet. He said that Trevor had gone off to run with the wolves, or some shit like that.
 
Can you believe it? He fucking left us on the eve of what is likely the last battle of our lives! He left me without even so much as a goodbye.
 
I hung his whips on my belt, figuring I might have to put them to use… I’ve definitely watched him enough and he’s shown me enough that I think I can handle them well enough to do some damage. I tucked his fragment of Mordenkainen’s staff with my own, and slung his bundle of gear over my shoulder. As I did so, his journal fell out. I picked it up, and as Kasimir was already starting to pressure us to move, I glanced at his last entry…
 
It’s a letter. For me. Now I kind of feel bad for what I wrote a few minutes ago. I still feel that way, but he explained himself a bit more. Yes, I’m angry, but if I die here, and if you ever find this journal, Trevor. I love you too. Even when I want to punch you in the face for abandoning us like this… we could have helped you with the transformation. I don’t know how, but we would have figured something out…
 
I hope that we live to see the next dawn, and maybe I will be able to explore Faerun with Trevor, and tell our own stories… but for now, we must move… Kasimir is already getting too far ahead...