I don't know what's going to happen. All i know is I couldn't help Ark. Now im burying myself in what I love and i just feel so tired. I feel like I did three years ago, cold, helpless, alone, tired and hungry. I don't know how i forgot to eat yesterday but i couldn't help myself from kicking the foot of my bed in anger before I got food. I feel like i'm loosing sight of why I kept myself around, going on this journey. My head hurts and my arms are burning from how much i've worked on these tapestries, but i can't seem to pull myself away until i've hurt myself, but once i've fixed that problem I go back to it. I need someone to tell me i'm okay, because i just can't convince myself it'll work out right now. Not with barg having died, rankle having been takin away from his shenanigans, me having tried to mind link with that yellow crystal and me knowing what im walking everyone into. I cant do it alone, and i know i cant do it like this. Someone, please, get these thoughts out of my head.