So... I think I've decided. I think I need to leave the killing and adventuring life behind me.
I'm really tired, I haven't had a decent nights sleep since i was a kid. and I think one of the only ways to acheive that peace again is to make up for my past atrocities by giving up killing altogether.
obviously I haven't told the party yet, but I think once this battle with the vampires is over I'll probably leave all this stuff behind me, where I'll travel to perhaps a monk monestary and relearn inner peace.
if something does happen to me during this battle, Me and Strahl wrote up a legal will a fw months back which will be put into effect.