Jacks Library down time.

I have spent many days here these last few weeks, looking inward to ask myself the big questions. Who am I meant to be?
 
Am I meant to be a war monger who takes out destruction on innocent lives?
 
Am I meant to be a really powerful wizard to aid my allies?
 
Am I meant to leave the adventuring life behind to pursue a simpler life?
 
I still haven't come up with any answers for these questions, but perhaps I should think about leaving this life behind, to put the horrible things I've done behind me.
 
Or perhaps I should attempt to face my atrocities and redeem myself.
 
I'll probably remain in this library until the play starts, but even then, I don't know if I'll attend.
 
Every day I feel my power grow, but I also feel my psyche crumbling under the immense regret I feel for all the lives I ended during the war.
 
For now, I shall continue studying