A day I'd rather forget.

So uh... I think I seen the other side uh the veil today. Was awake, and... then wasn't.
 
I ain't got no snide comment, no uh... no perky sayin'. I's just straight terruhfied. It's like bein' asleep but you can still feel a remnant uh... a coldness where the warmth uh my soul was. It ain't really nothin' to joke about.
 
Fuck I uh.... I ain't cut out for this shit.
 
Nah, no jokes I ain't ready for this. I ain't built for it. I ain't ready. I ain't good for this kinda life. Ain't even wanna consider how much dead weight I's bein' to the group, honestly.
 
Think... Think they'd notice if I ran off in the night and jus'.... went back to Neverwinter? Shit, think Selune would notice? I...
 
Look I's a good for nothin' two bit orphan urchin with uh history uh disappointin' mentors and authority figgers. How's that make a hero, anyhows?
 
 
 
I tried maybe callin' to Selune. Ain't hear nothin'. I ain't sure if I done it wrong er whut. But uh... some uh this magic stuff don't feel like it's comin' from me, or comin' from her. Ain't sure. Managed tuh kinda protect the one fool and take care uh the one wound but... it all ran out after that. It's gotta stop runnin' out. I's gotta maybe spend more time doin' more practice, or somethin'. I'll figger it out.
 
 
 
 
Fuckin spiders.