A day above the ground.

Well, ain't dead.
 
Shit, that's in poor taste, ain't it, considering... well, everything that happened yesterday.
 
I can't believe they're all gone. Like so many candles, snuffed out all at once. I can't honestly believe it. Nah, it's all a bit messed up. Probably still processing, really. How am I supposed to feel about this? I ain't think I'm feeling it yet. Yeah, sure, there's a base level of fucked up this is, you know, but... I knew my time with 'em had a timer... but I ain't figure it would end like this for any of 'em. Man, this is a feeling between bein' numb and dead, ain't it?
 
I know I gotta do right about this, but... I feel like I should be cryin' more. That one dwarf I played King's Ransom with a week ago, he was talkin' bout how people just detach from sad shit and let it flow right through 'em, so they ain't gotta feel it. I thought he was full of it, whole night. No way people just let stuff go like that. Sure, I seen a friend or two step out my life and only thought about them once or twice, but that's different. I know they goin' to a better place. This... this was just a slaughter. I can't see no good come out of this.
 
Hell, there's a lotta unbelievable stuff that happened last night. That dream... It ain't make sense. I feels like something strange done happened. I gots an idea 'bout who that mightta been, but I can't remember a damn thing about it when I try to.
 
It still ain't matter who she was and why this all happened, do it? Nothing to do now but move forward and see how far I get. The legs still keep moving when I want 'em to, so I think I gots to keep 'em steppin'. One step at a time until there ain't nowheres to step. They'll all thank me, on the other side, once I bring it all to justice or die tryin'. They gonna know I done it, I'm gonna remember each of them and tell their story at some point. One story at a time, then, when it comes to that.
 
Lady luck, whoever you done decided to be, just go ahead and be by my side, I guess.