So This Is Love?

Did I really say what I think I said last night? I know I was drunk. I know Thalia walked me back to my room. I said "I love you." as she left. But then, again, was I coherent? Did she hear me? Did she understand how I meant it? Thalia and I have been very close through all of this. She spent the day working on her spellbook and I missed her.
 
I have the seashell from the Tide Queen's realm to give her, but I haven't found the right time. I feel distracted and conflicted about how I feel about her. I want to spend all my time with her. When she's not there, she's all I think about. If that isn't love, I don't know what is. So, yes, I am in love with Thalia. I am just afraid to tell her.
 
Afraid, not because she may not feel the same, but because of what may change between us. I've always protected her during combat because I can. I don't want her to try to protect me at the risk of her life. Nonetheless, I need to tell her. If for no other reason then to get it off me chest. After the knighting ceremony tomorrow seems as good a time as any.
 
I wonder if I should tell Mara first so she can keep Kebub away. ;)