Internal Struggles.

"What's the point of even being the officer of something that doesn't even matter? This job is so pointless...yet...here I am. Still having a pile of papers every month that I have to complete. But it honestly just feels like no one even reads them. Why the hell did my dad tell me to be the officer of this stupid position. I rather be working with machines and making designs to improve the airship! Not this stupid pencil pushing crap!
 
At least Lio let's me help him. I'm grateful for that. It's the only thing I have any salvation in doing and the only thing that puts my mind at ease. *sigh* I hope one day they'll realize my job is stupid and offer me a different position...but alas...I doubt that's going to be allowed. I guess I'll just keep struggling through...pretending that I'm happy...I mean if Vatna is immune from having to follow the rules...what's to say there aren't going to be others who stop following the rules too...I need a stiff drink. Signing out."