Ugh

I don't think I want to be friends with these people anymore.
 
First, I was out on a walk, trying to get used to the area when all of a sudden my world went dark. Stayed dark for a while too, because when I came around again, I had a bag over my head. But I wasn't alone. Fryd was there too. We were being recruited into... a secret organization. I wanted to say no, but.... They knew. And THEN Fryd freaking guilt tripped me into joining. "I don't trust anyone else to heal me if I go down." I'm not good at what I do, I killed someone so Lliira is probably SO mad at me that she's going to take my powers away, and he's saying he trusts no one else to heal him?
 
But it worked, and now I'm part of this stupid organization that I don't want to be a part of.
 
THEN they decided we all needed to have a drink together. All of us. So, I did my best to stay as far away from Scorch as I could. But I could FEEL him staring at me. Daara noticed and pulled us together and tried to make us talk. Fryd said some hullabaloo about "not getting any better if you don't try". I couldn't explain what I was feeling properly at all, because once again my words failed me, then Igris decided to announce that my face was doing the color changing thing again and it spun off into an entirely different tangent.
 
Fryd suggested we try to break into the warehouse and see if we could recover some of the treasure we were forced to leave behind. i'm going with them. I will not allow him to leave me alone in this organization that I didn't want to be in in the first place. He and I are going to be a team now, whether he likes it or not.
 
My head hurts. I'm going to bed.