My Life is OVER

IAMSOSTUPIDWHYDIDIDOTHATWHYDON'TMYWORDSWORKPROPERLY?
 
First. I found that there are more of these elemental beings. I looked at Daara (who is the best friend that I have. I don't know if she knows that, but she is) and all I said was "there are more of them?"
 
Stupid. SO STUPID.
 
THEN after we went to the bookstore and they made it so that Scorch could understand and speak to us, I gave him that book that I found, because he can use it, my words turned to porridge in my mouth and I just made a strangled noise and then ran off.
 
I refuse to be in any room with Scorch. I refuse. I will jump out a window if I have to, so that I can avoid him perceiving me. I'll probably combust.
 
I think I need to see someone about this. This is becoming a problem.