.... Death.... Why didn't I try harder? I was worried that if I didn't kill the Thay, that they would kill more of my friends. Could I have saved them? Why didn't I try harder? If I did any different, would someone else had died? Would all of us have died? Would I have died? ... Could I have prevented this if I had spoken up against this plan? What if I wasn't so distracted when we were discussing this. I can't fail my friends anymore. ... We just met them and couldn't protect them. ... how can we save and protect others if we can't even protect our own? ...