Death Expanded

Strange how something that you thought of so often growing up is so much colder in actuality. Being the only dragonborn with a tail and metallic leads to lonely life. I always wanted a family that loved me, but all I got was a mother who blamed me for my father's trickery. How could I help that my father tricked my mother into believing that he was a dragonborn instead of detestable dragon. But why are dragons detestable? My family and my entire clan believe so, but of course they also believe me to be a constant reminder of their pain and hatred for dragons. Not sure why. Some say that they created and enslaved us. Some say that dragons tricked people into fucking them like my mother. Still others say Bahamut created us. I'm not sure if there is a Bahamut or any Gods, but they don't give a damn about me if they are out there. I guess that is why I am here. I tried to help by casting bane on the Squidface man and Ogre, but it wasn't enough. It is never enough. Was never enough. Not for my family who never wanted me. Not for my new found friends who likely are dying now. Nor for my father who never showed his face. I just saw his tail throughout my life. I wish I could know him, but mainly to learn why he didn't come for me when I hatched and was cast out with the farm animals. I know he gave me part of my powers. Sorcery is within me, but I went to the bard college to escape my life. Three Strings helped me more than he can ever know. Too bad I will never get to let him know.
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I smell meat.... What is the after life this smelly?
"Hello."
Igiris saved me? And Urku? Tiny dragons that are mightier than my dragonborn elders. Maybe they are closer to dragons than even me.
 
I want to explore. I have a new zeal for life. Hey Marlaria is here. Maybe I can ask her about the man she killed in the bar. I am curious as to what evil must have been consuming him and what he must have done or was planning to do. ... Right now is likely not the best time. I'm out of spells and if that conversation goes poorly I will need to be able to defend myself. I do not wish to feel the cold emptiness of death for a long time.