The Living Force

It's been a few days since my last entry. Life has been busy since we got back to the Factory, or I guess I should say 'Gear Up Works', now that the business has been named. While we were dealing with Shimmerstone, Master Alize has grown a bit of a following. She saved a part of one of the local gangs, who got caught up in some sort of inter-gang politics. The end result of this was the gang members she saved formed a new gang, the 'Force Dragons', and moved in.
 
We had a meeting on how to proceed, given what we learned from the Rakata ruins. Asha is staying on for the time being, and getting some training from Master Alize, but not becoming a Jedi. Small steps. We're going to wait on contacting anyone until we can take the Yokai, or is it now the Starcrawler. Niwadi and the Qiju renamed it. Asha seemed to think it'd annoy Darth Amalga, so agreed to it. Anyways, we're going to use the Starcrawler to get to one of the local systems that has a Republic Relay Station, and use that to send inquiries and data to Tython. There's a Jedi Archivist there who specializes in things like the Rakata, so they seem the best point to start.
 
As for me, I've been given a pile of training and meditation lessons, which have filled my days. The training I don't mind, but meditating 'on listening to the Living Force' has been it's usual horror. I don't know why, but I've never been any good at this part of being a Jedi. My life is filled with the Force. It's literally all I 'see'. I've just never heard it say anything. Never felt it pull or push me toward some action or goal. I know it happens, I've seen way too many examples of it in the last several years to think they're all full of it. I just can't figure out why it happens, or what they're doing to get there. I meditate, I listen... it's boring. I just end up rearranging the garden for TK practice. Master would say I'm missing the point, and I probably even agree with her, it's just nonsensical to me. Centering myself is simple. I can see the flows of the Force just by looking. I'm literally up to my proverbial eyeballs in the Living Force. Coaxing it to move, guiding it to effect the physical world? Simple. Getting it to tell me something, anything? Evidently impossible...