Nearly To Riverspire

I expect to arrive in Riverspire tomorrow and I will be so glad to have a bit of rest. I enjoy traveling but walking for three straight days is not fun. Especially alone. Hopefully that will be the last part of my journey on foot until Absalom.
 
The gravity of leaving Avennara is really starting to hit me. It was my home my entire life till now but now I'm gone. I don't know when or where I will find a new place to call "home" or someone to share it with. Will I find somewhere to fit in? Will I be alone for years? Or decades? In a way, I am excited for adventure but mostly I'm scared. I have convinced myself that I will find a new normal. Find ways to adapt. but maybe I'm lying to myself. I will never forgive myself for what I've done and I will never forigve Aunt Ellyria.
 
One thing I know- I'm the only person in all the planes I can control. Maybe it's time to make a new me. I no longer have to be who others want me to be and I'm not beholden to the expectations of others or their ideas of what's "right" or "best." I'm not stuck following their traditions or conforming to their expectations. There are some things about myself that never really felt "right" but I can't really put my finger on them. Maybe the more distance between my past and my present the more clear that will be come.
 
-- Ryel