Thoughts during journey

Day 1 party, Once i joined this party, It felt weird, as if heavily disliked, but i think it is all gonna be great and imma make us have fun.
 
 
Day 2 party, This is already going bad i have lost gambate and, im getting more worried what if he gets hurt... what if i hurt everyone again.
 
day 3 party, Welp i feel horrible, as if i've been on poisoned, i feel like vomiting every second.
 
day 4 party, feel like i have decended into the heavens then was not accepted, i saw the gates of hell and was also not accepted.
 
day 16 party, forgot this book existed i was proposed during a tressure hunt by a boy 11 years younger idk how to feel.
 
day 17 party, Welp never knew arberd was a dog