The long journey to Me (Prompt 1)

First Impression's: I am not sure if I have shown my true self yet to the party. I have huge trust issues and deep down lack any sense of who I am or where I belong .. Who is Mazira?
Gold My dwarf friend My first real friend besides my mother oh and a pet bird I had as a child (more about that later ) . Gold he tries to be patient with me. though I am afraid hmmm I mean I think I get on his nerves from time to time...
I try to not be so bothersome I am not sure where this part of me comes from this always wanting to go forward I've always been pushy and fidgety and I lack patience and understanding. I think this comes from being locked away so long in the house (for my own protection of course ) I need to learn how to slow down and listen ..and too control my urges ( in hind sight I shouldn't of drank as much as I did from the Blessing cup ) Oops But it was soooo good I couldn't help myself ... I wasn't trying to be greedy I just have huge self control issues .. Do I get this from my father I wonder ?
So let me see the people in my party hmm I like the Rory guy he is bitchin and super cute with that lisp He is friendly and non judgmental from what I can tell and he makes me laugh ..He has a innocence about him that you can't help but be drawn too .. I love someone that speaks their mind perhaps cause I do this as well ..My mother use to say I spoke without thinking ...She always said that would be my downfall .. hmm only time will tell I guess =)
 
The quiet women with the cloak is interesting I think she is annoyed by me as well .. I truly have not tried to make an impression on her.. She seems off in the clouds somewhere but not in a bad way . its like she is always deep in thought or torment ( I haven't quite figured that one out yet ) She reminds me of a bird I had as a child... I kept it in box under my bed.. it never sang it never flew it didn't know how to be a bird and I suppose I didn't know how to let it be a bird either a box is no place for a bird (big sigh ) but he was my only child hood friend there for awhile and I didn't want him to leave me ..The lady with the cloak is so much like that bird in the box she is in a sad dark place and nothing good will come from that ..One day I opened that box and the bird didn't move it ceased to be but ya know what I like to think perhaps that bird is flying high and free now .. I hope that cloaked lady can fly high and be free one day too .. I will try to be more open with her in the days ahead ..Maybe I will tell her about my Bird
 
The other guy is pretty quiet but he seems smart when he does speak . I really haven't had any conversations with him yet I think his name is Sorna something ? did I mention I am bad with names ?? Well this guy the party picked to be second in charge .hmm I am not going to lie here I sorta thought Gold would want me for his second I mean I have his back and I am true and strong and well I have his back hmm is it because I am an orc ? or is it because I am young ?? or is it because I am a girl ??? I am not sure maybe its because they don't know me yet hell I don't even know me yet but I do know this I would be a great second or third its in my blood I think ??
well that's my party as I know them so far what a group of misfits honestly lol but this is a short entry cause my tummy is growling I am super hungry and I think I might sneak into gold knap sack and see if he has tucked any eggs away .. This journey sure lacks my mothers home cooking ..
 
Oh wait the other two guys the skinny human and the dwarf with the braid .. these two I am not quite sure of Gold does all the speaking to them they seem to over look me ( my life story ) but just you wait ..when we go to battle I will show my strength there and then they will take notice of me .. just you wait .. ( tummy growls louder ) ok that's it for me got to go before Gold wakes up but worry not I will be back soon ..God I hope he eggs in his knapsack