Strange Bedfellows

So I was up again, encountering all those stormtroopers recently brought everything to the surface and I was not sleeping. I guess it had been two, no three, days since I'd slept and the droid brain I am installing in my swoop is almost done, so I guess I was just sitting staring when Mel came in. I don't know how long I sat there or how long she stood at the Caffie Urn but I guess it was some time, because we both just sort of laughed awkwardly when we realised it. Then we talked for hours, I'm not gonna get into it here but sufficed to say her past makes me want to solve some of her problems with my blaster. But I told her about the cleansing on my tribe and my hate for Stormtroopers, and I felt a bit better about it. She was vulnerable and exposed and I felt protective, so I put my arms around her, and immediately felt better. I think I have a need to protect. To keep these people safe in this crazy act of rebellion.
 
We spent the night snuggled in her bed, and in the morning, when we woke up, I told her about my plan to rescue my Swoop Gang. Mel was interested in taking things farther than a snuggle but I am not certain where things stand with Xsosa so we didn't go there. However, I discovered (I actually discovered this the night I spent with Xsosa, but confirmed it last night) that I sleep just fine as long as I am protecting someone while I sleep.
 
Gawd I'm an idiot! I have three women in my life at the moment, and I'm interested in all three. What the hell is wrong with me?! I need serious friggin help.