Audrey Cerridwen
Audrey Cerridwen
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Audrey is a half-vampire third year Slytherin student at Hogwarts.
Character Location
Alignment
Chaotic Stupid
Age
13
Date of Birth
January 23, 1980
Spouses
Siblings
Children
Gender
Female
Eyes
Blue
Hair
Blonde
Skin Tone/Pigmentation
Pale
Height
5' 2"
Weight
85 lbs
Journal Entry #3
August 19th, 1993
Dear Diary,
I didn't bring my journal to Romania with me. I thought about it, but with so many cousins and aunts and uncles around there's not much privacy and I didn't want to have someone trying to read over my shoulder. It was really great being able to see them. I didn't realize how rusty my Romanian was until I was there, my nan about fainted one dinner when I asked the whole table to "Treci sutienul" instead of "Treceți untul", perhaps I should be more diligent about keeping up my language skills. I wonder if Archer will practice with me. I promised him that he could practice his weird mind reading thing on me this term, so I don't see why he'd be opposed to the idea. Knowing him, he'd think it's cool.
Speaking of Archer, I got a letter from him right before I left Romania. He seems to be having a great time in Egypt. I'm really glad that his family allowed him to go study with his brother. Sure, his brother is a blood purist asshole, but at least he's not stuck in that stuffy old house being ignored and talked down to by his whole family. Besides, I think Archer has always fancied himself an adventurer. I'm sure this is just fulfilling every childhood fantasy he's ever had about being the big strong hero, fighting off dark magical creatures, and rescuing the damsel in distress from some ridiculous trap. I can't wait to see him again. It's not the same around here without him, and there is so much I want to talk to him about. I really hate to say this, especially since I have a wonderful and loving boyfriend, but Archer is the one person in the world I trust the most. I feel like I can tell him anything and he'll stick by me. I hope he feels the same way. That'd be embarrassing if I place so much stock in our friendship and he doesn't feel the same way. He's supposed to be home right before term starts, so I probably won't get to see him until we're on the train back to Hogwarts. Damn, that means I'll have to share him with Margaret. Damn, is this how he felt when I started dating Graham? Oh. Well no bloody wonder he was an absolute terror.
Graham is having a rough go of it at the moment. His parents are splitting up. Apparently his dad cheated on his mum with someone he works with at the ministry. I can't imagine the pain that Graham must be in right now. He's spent all summer looking after his siblings and watching his parent's relationship completely crumble. I try to go over and visit with him everyday, he's even come round here and spent a few nights. I think he likes being able to get away for a bit. It's a damn shame dad has such good hearing... Not that I would try anything too salacious in the house, but if I even get out of bed while Graham is over my dad knows. UGH damn vampires.
Liam is not doing so great. The system we put in place to allow him to rest has completely fallen apart in my absence. I'm over there every single day now, making sure he's sleeping and eating. I'm also trying to keep Evelynn's spirits up. The date of the exam is drawing closer and the tension in the house is palpable. Fortunately, Ellie has been a godsend and has really made sure that Eve is alright. Liam told me that he has a promising lead. When I'm not assisting him, I've been working on take some old Romanian folk potions my family uses to quell their emotion-fueled magical outbursts. If all else fails, maybe those will do something?
Term starts in just a few weeks. Eve is supposed to be tested the week before. Everything is going to be alright. Everything is going to be alright. Everything is going to be alright. If I keep saying it out loud, it's bound to come true. Right?
Journal Entry #2
14th July, 1993
Dear diary,
My family is leaving for Romania in a few days. Mum and dad told me that we would be going way back before the Easter holidays. I was so excited to go, but now with things being as they are, I feel like I'm abandoning my friends. Mum and dad have been busy lately. Dad has been doing some freelance work for the ministry and mum is working extra hours so she can get extra time off when the baby arrives, so I've been going over to the Philip's nearly everyday. I've been trying to be helpful to Liam in anyway that I can. I think he's a bit skeptical still, which is fair. I'm only a third year, and the work he's doing is really complex stuff. Sometimes I remind him that in the span of 11 years he went from not being able to read and write to creating one of the most complicated and outstanding potions made in modern wizarding history. Besides, I'm not doing anything directly with his work. I write notes, sometimes I'll stir a cauldron but only with explicit permission and detailed instructions from Liam.
He's not sure if we'll be able to complete the potion before it's needed, but we're also working on our backup plan. Ellie has been studiously preparing for her role in all of this. I think she'll be brilliant at it. I never noticed how good of an actress she is.... A little spooky. I've been meaning to ask her how she's doing. She lost months of time while petrified and was thrown in to a vat of bubbling chaos as soon as she opened her eyes. She and Ethan and a bit of an argument about a week and a half ago. It sort of snowballed and Eve got involved and to be honest got a little messy. I was able to talk to her a bit, and learn why she cared so much about the..... issue that was brought up... I know very little about Ellie's life before Hogwarts. I don't want to pry, every time something relating to her old life gets mentioned she sort of goes rigid and gets the glazed look in her eye. I don't really understand what's happening, but I know it's definitely not good. I'm sure Eve and Ethan know, they're much closer to Ellie than I am. Still, I was able to help her through a bit of it, but fortunately they were able to work it out and I got to be a fly on the wall as it happened.
I'm scared about Eve, I don't know if this is going to work out. I'm scared to write anything down too. Every time I think about what's coming I feel sick. I can't dwell on it. I've found that the Phillips household has a subtle sort of cyclical rhythm to it, directly related to how well Liam's research is going. Several times I've gone over to the house and there's been a strange gloom over everything. Usually that means that Liam is struggling with something and Eve and Ethan have picked up on Liam's frustration. He can't help it, he works so hard. I've stepped into a new role: the unfailingly optimistic assistant. Every time I notice that Liam is having a rough go of things, I make some tea, force him to take a break and eat something, and serve as the households personal cheerleader for as long as needed. Honestly, I think forcing him to eat is more helpful than my cheerleading, but I'm going to pretend that everything I'm doing is helpful.
Archer is away on Egypt. I haven't heard from him yet, but I hope he's having a good time. Most likely he's already gotten himself into trouble with some ancient Egyptian curse that he's going to bring back to Hogwarts and infect everyone with. If he does, he better at least bring me a trinket.
I wonder if there's a way to make this journal really private. Like when someone opens it they just see random scribbles or something. It's hard to "journal your deepest thoughts and feelings" when you are afraid of what will happen if someone reads your deepest thoughts and feelings.
Journal Entry #1
3rd July 1993
Dear diary,
Madam Pomfrey recommended that I start writing my thoughts and feelings down on paper. She said I was probably traumatized after what we all experienced in the Chamber of Secrets. To be fair, it was pretty terrifying and, sure, I do have recurring nightmares about the big snake bird and about Voldemort coming back and killing everyone I love to torture me. But, I really don't see what writing about it is going to do. If anything, having it down on paper is just going to make me relive it all when I go back and read past entries. I honestly wasn't going to do it, but mum bought me the journal and I guess I should try for them. Honestly, my poor parents have been through it. I don't know what they expected sending me to Hogwarts, but it definitely wasn't this. Sure, I've always been a troublemaker. Dad says I get it from my vampire side, and I'm inclined to agree. Apparently, when they found out about everything that happened dad turned into a bat and tried to fly all the way to Scotland to get me. Mum had to grab one of our brooms and fly after him. He got quite far, but bats aren't really meant to fly super long distances. There's a reason wizards use owls and not bats... I know I'm causing them pain. I know that I'm not an easy child to raise. I really don't mean to hurt them. Mum was all weepy when I got back home. Just kept hugging me and mumbling things about not letting me go back to school. I know she didn't mean it. Despite the trouble I've gotten in, they know I'm happy at school.
I always wanted a baby sibling. When I was a kid every birthday I would blow out my candles and wish for a little brother or sister. But now, I'm filled with dread. This poor baby is going to be born with a target on its back. Regardless of what Liam says, I know that I am going to be targeted in the future either by Voldemort or one of his followers. I hope that I am not important enough that my family would be targeted. I hope that when he comes for me he just kills me. Quick and clean. No one I love needs to get hurt. It's not just my family that I'm worried about either. I'm worried for Graham and Archer and all of my friends. Graham has never done anything to harm anyone. He's sweet and brilliant and one of the most incredible people I have ever met. He doesn't deserve to be harmed just because he decided to date me. If I wasn't so selfish I would break up with him. For his safety. But I love him, and I'm a terrible person but I want to be with him. He is so constant in my life. He's always there for me, unfailingly. I don't know how I got so lucky to be with him.
And then there's Archer. The most frustrating and annoying person I know, and inexplicably my best friend in the whole world. He's a bit of a mess right now. His girlfriend is a rat, his family are assholes, and I don't think he knows what he's doing with his life. I've been asked so many times why I'm still friends with him, By Evelynn or Ellie or that random Hufflepuff girl in the bathroom that one time, and I really can't explain why. This sounds so silly but I wonder if there is such a thing as platonic soulmates. Like I'm NOT romantically interested in Archer. like AT ALL. But, sometimes it feels like Archer and I are two sides of the same coin, you can't really have one without the other. I don't know, I have a lot of really confusing thoughts about Archer. I just don't understand him sometimes. I wish he would just MAKE SENSE. I still kind of want to hunt him...
Honestly, writing down my feelings did make me feel better. Maybe I'll keep doing this.
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