I had a dream that I was back in the study. He was there. He was mad. I was... disappointing. Nothing new. The new part was when I woke up the spell that we were working on was in my spell book. Written down, just like I was writing it in the dream. And I can’t even begin to think about what that entails so I won’t. Further research needed. I woke up feeling.. ineffectual.
In contrast though I’ve been writing that essay Achen suggested and I’m feeling pretty good about it. Professor Ickis said it’s good anyway, so that’s something! That's why it’s been a while since I’ve written, very busy. Good busy. I'm really enjoying The Institute, all my classes really. Studying around other people just feels different you know? Collegiate, if that word exists. And lately after I get home and we eat Ele and I have been spending most of the night in the study reading... while she gives dirty looks to Azreal. .. I see those Ele. Passive-aggression aside though, it's been really fun to have a study partner, as it were. .. even if magic comes so fucking easy for her.
And Achen teaching me how to make Azreal has been life changing. He's my best buddy- like I've always wanted! He's always with me, he cuddles with me, he loves me, he makes me laugh, he's the best. Azreal, not Achen. A̶l̶t̶h̶o̶u̶g̶h̶
Anyway, except for that one thing everything's been really good. I don't know, should I rip that page out? Should I try and find him to ask him about it? At the very least he'd have the answer. Even still, when I do see him again I don't think I'll be like that anymore. I've learned so much lately. I'm more confident, I've killed monsters, I'm better now.
Right?
-w.