Dear Diary: Two years ago

October 16:
The Lady Laniette arrived today. She is everything a lady should be: Beautiful and calm, witty and kind. She is absolutely perfect. The way she greeted the household was straight from the etiquette books. Once she marries my brother, I hope, oh I hope I will be just like a sister to her. I can imagine taking walks with her. And learning how to comport myself properly. Mother is so pleased with this match. She has told me I will be spending all my time with Lady Laniette until my wedding so I will be a better person. I'm very excited about this. She brought an entire army of maids and valets. I don't even know what half of them do for her. But I will find out. This afternoon I have been promised a ride with her. I have so many questions. I can not wait to have a sister.
 
Like the touch of rain she was
On a man’s flesh and hair and eyes
When the joy of walking thus
Has taken him by surprise:
 
I arrived early to our meeting. Being so excited about having someone to talk to everything about. But what I heard... She was screaming at one of her maids. I've never heard such words said outloud. I assumed it was the staff yelling at first, so I peeked in the room. She was half dressed and throwing things. The maids were all cowering. I have never seen a person in such a passion. Mother caught me and let me know that I was not to tell my brother about anything I saw. That it was not place and soon both Lady Laniette would be happily married to my brother and I would be married to Lord Finnan.
 
With the love of the storm he burns,
He sings, he laughs, well I know how,
But forgets when he returns
As I shall not forget her ‘Go now’.
 
At dinner, my brother spent the entire time at dinner just, watching her. I can tell he's in love. But he didn't see and doesn't know. Mother is right, I need to keep my mouth shut. And let him be happy. Oh, I so want him to be happy. I doubt he would even believe me if I said anything. I am going to watch her though. If she is not all that she seems to be, I will keep my brother safe. Even if I have to go against my mother and father. I will keep him safe.
 
Those two words shut a door
Between me and the blessed rain
That was never shut before
And will not open again.