Worse

I feel so much worse. I can't even hold my own against the violent creatures of the night. I'm so.. tired. I want to fall asleep somewhere warm and near water and sleep until the moss grows over me. The corruption continues to spread, and I'm worried it may effect my garden. I also fear that this illness is unlocking a more primal part of me. I woke up this morning with an urge to create a nest, to flee south, to do so many weird, abnormal things. Rekker and Rams seemed pretty concerned, but I was up and walking at the time, so it was okay...right?
 
That was until later. I had decided to rest for a while, just to see if it would help. I started vomiting. I was so dizzy and panicked. I didn't know what to do, so I just trudged through the tunnels. It took me so long. I'm usually so quick, it takes me a couple minutes to go through that tunnel normally. Today, it took me close to fifteen. I found him in his cooking area, looking kind of lost. He heard me muttering, and lead me somewhere to rest. Everything else was a blur; Ranger singing to me, builders tea, soup, talking during a small journey, sitting with Ramsworth as he build his forge, his room being covered in plants... it's so confusing. I'm so tired.
 
I think I'm also starting to understand my feelings toward Ramsworth. He makes me feel so safe, so welcome. He helped me after Aeolos kidnapped and almost killed me. He comforts and eases my racing mind. I'm just worried that I might be falling for someone who doesn't understand or reciprocates. I sound ridiculous, writing of a dumb (maybe) crush. I hope it's just my fever.
 
Until Next Time
~Goose Waterglider