Captain's Log 7

Well its been so long from when I did this lots on my mind so much going on I truly forgot to keep writing in here so much craziness. So much development with all these people here. I feel as I almost would be losing my edge of it all. These people are a beacon of such hope and want such good beings. Why I must say I do hope my crew is doing well. I often wonder if they even got the message im sure they did drexla is so smart I’m sure it all work out. That lighting sure does a number on my im tell ya, I need this to stop its truly getting on my last nerve. They all wanted to go to that man house that weird man who made bricky. They wanted to go to his house of all things, like what a crazy thing to do I do protest over dinner but it seems that I reckon I was in for it to help them. Help what a word I never thought I use again. After that wildness and being drugged to do some crazy puzzles I almost died to the same monsters we have seen before. I should really stop trying to help people but I did promise I would have helped them thru this. Then later that night I got to meet with the assassin’s guild seems like some nice people, interesting connections. I manage to strike a deal, one deal leader for money and information. Sounds great but I’m sure none of the others would like that to much only the crew would mostly understand. Drexla sure has some gumption. Sticking it out and helping me make that amazing plan and bomb for this occasion. Can I take the life of someone I feel who has done nothing wrong? Could I get past my own wants and go thru with the plan. She makes a well thought out plan so thru for not seeing much but we already have been locked out wrongfully I might say of those other leaders. Can we really get this done? My gut tells me we have to be ready just like those who hurt me I must be ready to kill them no matter what they started can I do that? And I keep this up? We manage to get a meeting with this leader. My mind tends to wonder to much… certainly when drexla loves talking to get her point across. This man maybe lazy and seems like he is willing to listen. This plan to kill him truly seems to complicated and I need to know can I do this myself can I watch him die. Bless drexlas heart but fuck this. I’m going to gas this man here and now I will let drexla get his assistant easy as pie… so I did I fucked up that plan of hers to watch this man die I still have that in me at least she may be mad at me but I can’t let this opportunity go. For some reason when she brought that man in I couldn’t seem to kill him or make up my mind. I hesitated for this kill he reminded me of when I never wanted to kill someone. He was scared I couldn’t even frame him for it just like my home. My mind was just racing stunning me from completing the clean up what an easy job yet I fucked it all up…. Well after being arrested and once again losing everything I have. All thanks to golkir for saving my skin we are outside of this town I did get this neat card from the assassin’s guild and a cloak. I’ll tell you what I never letting that happen again no one is innocent anymore kill who I want. That damn tobius was in my dream like I was asleep and he was there talking to me seeing my world my life asking about what happened. I guess drexla does try her best to lie not sure how well it worked but this man, he always seen thru me. Might as well tell him the truth of it all and what happened. Why lie to someone who shows up in a dream eh? If the creek doesn’t rise everything will work out. I will be back working on getting my stuff back and getting to the ship. What’s the worst that could happen?