Entry #5 The Reflections

None of this should [i]feel[/i] normal. I semi-regularly converse with the man I consider to be my god, we as a group run into multiple instances of calamity and are seemingly at the centre of the lot of it, and now we are being charged with a mission delivered by [i]my own god[/i] for the safety and wellbeing of our planet, AND the life of said god’s mortal enemy, before an interplanar war tears our world apart. We are not in control of this situation. [i]I[/i] am not in control of this situation— And I can’t tell if I’m supposed to be excited, angry or completely terrified.

It just [i]had[/i] to be Dracula, of all the enemies you could have chosen for us to fight.. They seemed so lost and confused when we tried to converse with them. Was it really them, or something else? They were provoked to fight, but.. Only at mention of the Archdevil Mephistopheles, so can they really be [i]blamed?[/i] .. For the first time, I actually think I need a damned drink.

I feel I have to pretend to keep up with everything that is going on in this reality. Being thrown so many choices and decisions.. Why does it so often fall to us? What path has fate set out for this group? Perhaps this is boring of me, but I did wish sometimes that our group faced more.. Standard challenges. Something that would keep us grounded, instead of this lucid dream.

So The Unforgiven appears to be an.. Alternate version of the Emperor.. But not quite. They are the first living god of this world we're seeing, but the events that transpired here are far different to those that took place in the world we know. Samsarans are all that are left in the memory of this world. The forms of other mortals appear twisted, and powered by machinery. If this is a glimpse of what our future holds, then I am worried, but-- Things are different here. Our history has fallen to a new path; That should surely be enough to avoid this fate?

Well this is.. Certainly discomforting. Whomever this 'Unforgiven' is, they seem to sap the magic of the world with just their presence.. We are walking upon a different world now. I think it is ours, but.. not quite. It's cold, mechanical and lifeless. No magic in the air.. It's troubling. We've also ran into the first Samsaran. Again. Thats.. Something.

Entry #5 The Reflections

I took another break from my journal; I should not make a habit out of this. Admittedly, Luna has become a substitute of sorts— I’ve been comfortable confiding in her my thoughts and feelings to everything we’ve been going through, and I have been m...

08:29 am - 11.05.2021

I’m glad the worst of this whole encounter is behind us, even if it didn’t go the direction I had hoped. I’m full glad that our two are safe, but... The other Luna and Aahi.. They were my companions as well. That we had to take the life of one is devastating to me.. But knowing what she had become there was no better alternative. The other Luna is also a cause for concern, if her actions would put more lives at risk. Gods above, I pray that she does not force our hand. [i]Anyone[/i] but her.

I am growing tired of allowing evil beings to exist long enough to pull at their schemes. Next time this happens, I will not hesitate.

I know better than to believe in the manipulations of a creature built of despair.. With that said, it has brought something to light that I do not believe I should ignore. I have been ignoring my duties too much for the sake of this group, and now that is at the expense of innocent lives. Hesitation towards evil. [i]No more.[/i]

A happy Snowlight day to my Companions today; I reaffirm that even being so far from home, I find that family is not far away- And I consider you all family. I’ll have to find an opportunity where we [i]aren’t[/i] a squad to get you all gifts!

It would be a lie if I was to say I didn’t find Luna’s lack of technological prowess amusing. Perhaps I should ask Aahi to set something up at our base so that I can try and teach her how to use one properly.

This reflection business is deeply concerning. While I’m glad to see them unharmed (mostly...) that they had gotten separated from us and left to wander alone with no direction or aid from ourselves, I can’t help but feel responsible. As a leader I should have ensured everyone’s safety crossing through the barrier.

Well moving to this new squad seems to have worked well for us; I can already tell this mission is exactly the kind of thing we continue to run into. It was also pointed out that parts of our squad have been neglected greatly.. I will endeavor to amend that.

It's going to be nice to have a bit of time to let our hair down. Everything during the trial was such a blur that it feels like eons since our last.

The Emperor.. He saw me directly. He made me his [i]hand[/i]. I never would have expected an honor such as this in all my life. I'm forever thankful for my friends who helped me on this journey, I doubt this would have come to pass without their assistance.

Gods, Raida I am sorry. Vana. Those that fell. Their blood is on my hands. I drove them to this. No matter the stakes, they chose to fight because of [i]my[/i] words. We at least held out until forces arrived but at what cost? Will anything of the city even be left after their battle? What of the souls trapped on the ship? A living god has died. We chose this. Why do I feel no matter how we choose to move forward, death will follow? I can't think like this right now. I still need to lead.

An actual, real living saint is taking [i]me[/i] as their student; The lost saint, no less! Though I guess they will need a title change at some point... They want to see me lead. I think I'm doing a good job, but.. Setting up war tactics is completely new territory for me. I'm just glad I have the backing of the immortals here.

Its very uncomfortable to know that there is detailed documentation on.. Me. My life. I dread to think what might even be in there.. And what kind of people have read it.

That was... A lot to process. Putting my personal history aside, hearing that there are possible plans to turn immortals into 'God Killers' is.. Worrying. And now we're having joint nightmares? This is uncomfortable.

I'm glad that people are able to take joy in my misery. At least something positive is coming from it. I really need some time to myself once this is over.

I'm not sure what just happened. I'm deeply concerned that nobody is seemingly able to focus on the fact that the city is being sieged by some soul collecting ship and an entire fleet and instead bicker about everything other than defending it. Supposedly we're going to plan to ambush some people that are looking to capture us, which should be.. Interesting.

The city is under attack by Druace. I wasn't there to protect the people of Acrea.. I have a chance to repay that.

Completed the First Trial

We actually [i]saved[/i] Lily! I don't.. Think the gods will be happy with us about that. And I became Immortal! I spoke with my soul very briefly. He was very.. Angelic. He had a Halo and wings! Hopefully this power will allow me to protect more people.

Well, the Orchestrator turned against us. At least we passed the Trial...?

I.. Think the trial took us on a detour. We met a gnome called Lily. I think she.. Made the trials? We kept getting jumped forward in time each time we met her, the whole thing was odd. The last time we saw her she was hiding from the Gods. She apparently did something that she couldn't tell us about, lest we are put in danger ourselves. .. I hope she's okay.

This trial has taught me that I am in serious need of upgrading my Armour. Hopefully this contract we have collected will provide us with sufficient funds to do so. On another note.. We seemed to fight some people from Luna's past? They did not appear to use imperial arms, but their Elf had very similar gear to me. I'll have to poke her and find out who they were.

I DID NOT EXPECT TO FACE THIS FEAR QUITE SO SOON [i]Sigh...[/i] It is an unfortunate necessity for the problem we have given ourselves.

We figured out a way to get through the trial without risking more lives. Apparently this is the same path The Emperor took, but he failed.. Are we making the right choice?

I had an.. Interesting conversation with the Orchestrator about temptation. He took pity on me for not finding any temptation to take drugs which.. I failed to understand? I really don't know.

Is.. Is it really [i]that[/i] unusual to be put off by thoughts of intercourse, especially so if it concerns close friends? I saw no fault in my reasoning before..

I... I have heard a party member say things no one should have to hear. I feel like I need to wash my brain..

Well, I'm not sure it [i]really[/i] counted since time isn't exactly certain here... But what the heck. Happy Snowlight day @lunaria-isatis-annua , @b806ead5-edf3-4484-98da-555b9e568734 , @faraahi-andeema and @lt-collier ! It is a privilege working with all of you, and I hope we can all continue to celebrate this day together for years to come.

Okay, life threatening danger aside... Having the oppertunity to face the same challenges that @the-emperor faced in his trial is incredibly exciting to me.

This trial is.. A lot. Even during the preliminaries and members of the other groups have already fallen. I could never imagine myself in that position but there is a creeping feeling in the back of my mind that I may not have to. I have much faith in our group's capabilities and we shall surely come out on top of this but I am.. worried.

This 'Orchestrator' fellow has far too much freedom over this reality than I think I'm comfortable with.

There are a lot of interesting characters heading to the first trial. And most of them are surprisingly quite pleasant! I was half expecting everyone to be very hostile.

With everything that has happened to Acrea its very nice to return to help with rebuilding. Granted I'm not one for building houses but an extra pair of hands wont go amiss. Hopefully my home city can return to its former glory soon.

@snuffles-woof Is just... Staring at me. I feel like he's up to something.

Someone thought it would be a fantastic idea to dress me up in some silly bird costume. I hate this.

I seemed to have missed quite a lot during some kind of.. Battle? I'm not really sure what happened to me. Perhaps it was some kind of mind control or manipulation. Right now every mission we go on my team gets drawn closer and closer to danger beyond our abilities. I am concerned for their safety. I would suggest some kind of getaway or break but given what we know currently its difficult to stay.. Settled. I think I need a drink.

While I have been taking steps to be more careful and responsible with @the-emperor 's Lance, it sure is difficult not to bring it out more often. I was able to destroy some tentacled abomination with it, and make this huge hole in the ground.

Entry #4: Oshen

Gosh, I'm not even sure where to begin with this one. I'm keeping information out of this entry, mostly because the report I'm going to have to submit will be more than enough work on its own. We've been stationed up in Oshen for a while. It's a nice ...

10:52 am - 30.07.2019

I think we actually did it. We FINALLY put a close to this damn case. @lunaria-isatis-annua @beb2a144-291a-4fcc-b9ae-d2415998a4d3 @b806ead5-edf3-4484-98da-555b9e568734 I hope you don't mind our group taking a healthy break after this particular job has concluded fully.

It seems our investigation is coming to a close soon; We come across a whole heap of information and evidence that has most likely tipped the case in our favour. I will finally have some free time to do as I please, at the very least until more work arrives. I'm very happy with our team and how hard they've been working. They deserve the break as well.

This investigation is really beginning to wear me down. Why does it feel like we're so close to finding an answer and have nothing at the same time? So many loose ends. So many suspects. Maybe I'm too used to being able to have someone before me, who is unquestionably evil, for me to defeat. I hope the next time we're called out for something I get to fight instead of finding clues and questioning people. I'm not suited for this kind of work.

We're live pretty soon! Our party are getting close to cracking this investigation wide open! Come join us! https://www.twitch.tv/overlord59

Are there any long term effects from wearing full-plate all day long? I can't really tell myself but I do worry my back will give out one of these days.

I really could go for a nice cup of tea right now. My brain feels like its been so worked recently that I haven't had much chance just to sit down for a bit.

Oh good lord. I think I may have been misinterpreting a few of the messages on here as normal advice when they were rather.. Oh no. OH NO

Oh! You know this seems like the PERFECT place to display some of my paintings! I have a few around during our downtime between jobs. First I have to figure out how..

Hmm.. The more I think about it the more I really think this pearl shouldn't allow me to communicate like this to such a wide audience. I guess being unintentionally exposed to the artefact changed more than those technicians thought.

I'm curious; what does everyone on here do to relax or unwind? I always start and end my day with some stretches and prayer, which is a good combo for clearing your thoughts, in my opinion.

I acknowledge ALL the gods, including the living ones. Because I am sensible. Just needed sure my stance is clear in this place. No other reason.

I'm not freaking out. Are you freaking out? I'm not. NOBODY is freaking out.

Can anybody recommend a good brand of polish for steel? I think my lance is getting a little dull.

Our airship is a little barren, I'm thinking of hanging up some artwork. I might have to get one of the others to help me put them up.

Does anybody know any good puns I can share with my team? I've been coming up... Short.

Hey @lt-collier , after this investigation business has concluded we were thinking about the first trial. If by then you haven't taken it, would you and your team accompany us? I think it would be a good idea!

I'm very surprised our cell has come into use so quickly. And it's not DIO in there.

I AM PRETTY SURE WE JUST KIDNAPPED SOMEBODY BUT IT WAS REALLY DANGEROUS IN THERE? IT MAY HAVE BEEN A RESCUE

Might die, send help

Just walked into a pub full of super scary powerful Witches

So Rexxar just kind of walked away from us? I'm confused.

Snuffles is acting funny, I think he might have swallowed something. Does anybody know any way I can check?

Snuffles tried to steal the Pearl, Emperor knows why.. I got it back though! I need a bit of a sit down though! Its hard running in this armor.

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This thing is excellent for keeping tabs on everybody, maybe a little too good. It also seems to be letting everybody's pet to use it! I must make sure Snuffles doesn't get his paws on one.

Seriously? I swear this Communication Pearl has WAY too many features.