Scars and Gaping Wounds
Bruised eyes. Broken bones. Faces acting like they do not care.
It's a performance.
Blood and cuts. Gaping wounds. Faces acting like they do not care.
It's for Sareena, you can't look away.
Lashes. Scars. Faces acting like they do not care.
She is freeing herself. Focus on that.
The newspaper clippings helped. She knew what this was and what this meant to Cardinal. It was well-crafted. Brilliant really. Peg finally managed to release her grip on Aloysius' arm. The singed shape of her fingers on his jacket could stay. The thought made her smile a little. She looked over at her husband, calm, steady, ready for a fight if one was required. She was glad he could enjoy the spectacle for what it was. She wanted to cheer for her friend and revel in this sweet taste of justice. But she couldn't.
A flash of anger. Breathe.
People gasped, shocked and horrified. Sounds of murmured outrage filled the room.
Would they feel the same way if it were only one? Would I want them to? Would they be right to? Would the scars matter more than the deception?
Her head swam, thoughts crashing into one another. She was too aware of her skin. Her left shoulder, her throat, her stomach. Her hands. Always her hands. She thought she might be sick. Aloysius shifted subtly next to her and the reminder of his presence stilled her.
And then Baron Johannes Windermere was punched squarely in the face and for one brief, beautiful moment everything quieted and Peg smiled. It wouldn't last, she could already feel her mind filling back up with questions and doubts, anger and pain at years of bruised eyes and broken bones, of blood and cuts and gaping wounds, of lashes and scars and her own face pretending she did not care.
That steadying hand around her and a glass of champagne in her hand. She managed to raise it to Sareena, proud, victorious, free in a new and profound way.
And then she was in the one place she knew everything was okay, in her husband's arms. Dancing.
Margarete's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Who Doesn't Like a Good Soiree?
30 Oct 2022 12:21:38
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Peg's Playlist
03 Nov 2022 01:44:33
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Memories in Rain
08 Nov 2022 07:57:04
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Consequences
27 Nov 2022 02:21:41
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Mother Knows Best
04 Dec 2022 01:16:58
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Always Too Much
08 Dec 2022 05:34:50
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The Early Days
13 Dec 2022 09:07:19
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The Akmon Appreciation Society
15 Dec 2022 04:46:36
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Who Are You Fooling?
25 Dec 2022 08:51:44
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Pretending
06 Jan 2023 05:19:01
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Grim Things
21 Jan 2023 03:08:39
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Childish Make-Believe
25 Jan 2023 08:51:29
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Failure
05 Feb 2023 05:17:21
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Afraid to Die
13 Feb 2023 01:52:45
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Loved Until
18 Mar 2023 12:33:22
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To Trust Yourself
02 Apr 2023 06:37:36
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A Normal Life
11 Apr 2023 06:59:04
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Roses and Thorns
10 May 2023 01:20:19
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Through a Glass Darkly, Part One
29 May 2023 12:27:39
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A Little Better?
01 Jun 2023 03:12:11
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The Younger Orlov Daughter
18 Jun 2023 11:56:44
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Choices and Actions
03 Jul 2023 11:31:11
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Through a Glass Darkly, Part Two
07 Jul 2023 04:36:55
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Roses and Thorns Revisited
07 Sep 2023 05:57:33
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Adventures in Avalon
14 Nov 2023 04:16:29
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Home
26 Nov 2023 05:13:27
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Eyes
31 Dec 2023 05:57:13
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Of Bravery and Cowardice
19 Feb 2024 09:40:51
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Heroes and Villians
19 Feb 2024 09:40:51
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Scars and Gaping Wounds
15 Sep 2024 04:15:42
30 Oct 2022 12:21:38
03 Nov 2022 01:44:33
08 Nov 2022 07:57:04
27 Nov 2022 02:21:41
04 Dec 2022 01:16:58
08 Dec 2022 05:34:50
13 Dec 2022 09:07:19
15 Dec 2022 04:46:36
25 Dec 2022 08:51:44
06 Jan 2023 05:19:01
21 Jan 2023 03:08:39
25 Jan 2023 08:51:29
05 Feb 2023 05:17:21
13 Feb 2023 01:52:45
18 Mar 2023 12:33:22
02 Apr 2023 06:37:36
11 Apr 2023 06:59:04
10 May 2023 01:20:19
29 May 2023 12:27:39
01 Jun 2023 03:12:11
18 Jun 2023 11:56:44
03 Jul 2023 11:31:11
07 Jul 2023 04:36:55
07 Sep 2023 05:57:33
14 Nov 2023 04:16:29
26 Nov 2023 05:13:27
31 Dec 2023 05:57:13
19 Feb 2024 09:40:51
19 Feb 2024 09:40:51
15 Sep 2024 04:15:42
The major events and journals in Margarete's history, from the beginning to today.
Scars and Gaping Wounds
Bruised eyes. Broken bones. Faces acting like they do not care. [i]It's a performance.[/i] Blood and cuts. Gaping wounds. Faces acting like they do not care. [i]It's for Sareena, you can't look away.[/i] Lashes. Scars. Faces acting like they d...
04:21 pm - 15.09.2024Afraid to Die
Searing pain. Tearing flesh. Claws and teeth. Her arm being ripped from the rest of her body. Gnashing teeth. Slashing claws. Flesh being pulled from bone. Muscle shredded. Searing pain. Sharp teeth. Wolves. Lions with too many eyes and too many legs. ...
01:52 am - 13.02.2023Failure
“I might if you could handle both.” She tried. She tried to handle it all. The voices, the anger, the expectations, school, society, people, darkness. Every moment of her life a tenuous walk on the tightrope between what she wanted to and what she...
05:17 pm - 05.02.2023Childish Make-Believe
"Some things are worth touching with care." The gentle voice, the soft touch. She couldn’t imagine him touching anything in anger. But her anger raged and boiled and bubbled, threatening to spill out at any moment and wreak havoc on the world. He tol...
08:51 pm - 25.01.2023Grim Things
CW: self-harm --You can fill it with your grim things if you like. When it is dry, you can burn it, and all the grim things along with it. Maybe it will help, until you can talk about them instead.-- She read the note over. And over. And over. Fill...
03:08 am - 21.01.2023Pretending
https://youtu.be/ciS5GikZ5Jo "People become what they pretend to be." Do you suppose that's how it really works? Could pretending ever bring anything but hurt? [i]Pretend you're happy when you're blue It isn't very hard to do And you'll find ha...
05:19 pm - 06.01.2023Who Are You Fooling?
Peg looked at the ice rink, watching unnoticed from a distance, a figure in a cloak. She watched parents with their children, friends, and lovers skate by, the joy evident on their faces. The holidays had a certain magic for people who were close to peopl...
08:51 am - 25.12.2022The Akmon Appreciation Society
***Joint writing project with Todd, fleshing out some of Vera and Peg's early experiences together.*** Vera stands up on a wooden crate along one side of the student quad. It is midmorning, and second classes have let out, giving the students a longer...
04:46 pm - 15.12.2022The Early Days
***Joint writing project with Todd. Peg and Vera near the beginning of their time together at the AC.*** Margarete had only been at the school a few weeks. It was all so new and she was still getting her bearings. Sitting in class wasn’t her favorite...
08:19 pm - 13.12.2022Always Too Much
“I didn’t say that, m’lady.” “Was there something I could help you with Lady Jaeger?” “I got to go check on the kids.” "I suppose you will run off to tell Lady Blackthorne?" Uncomfortable shifting, pained expressions, silent stares...
05:34 pm - 08.12.2022Mother Knows Best
[CW: self-harm] She runs back to the dorm, her heart pounding in her chest, the blood rushing in her ears. Another student walks in front of her; she doesn't notice and runs into them. She tries to apologize. She's not sure any sound comes out. S...
12:46 am - 04.12.2022Consequences
She comes back eventually. She doesn't particularly want to and yet it was where she was expected. And some part of her doesn't want her parents to worry. It was late when she returns, much later than she should have been there. And she is…well, she...
06:32 pm - 26.11.2022Memories in Rain
She returned to her room, cold, wet. Perhaps Veronika had the right of it after all--walking was overrated. Could she have avoided it? Stayed away from the rain? Stayed away from others. The dark isolation of her room felt comfortable...safe. She looked a...
07:57 pm - 08.11.2022Who Doesn't Like a Good Soiree?
CW: Self-harm, emotional trauma Back in the quiet dark of her room, Peg sat on the edge of her bed. She didn't bother with the light, she could see well enough in the dark and this way Veronika and Miranda wouldn't worry. She looked across to the shelf...
12:21 pm - 30.10.2022Peg's Playlist
URL https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLqb8fa3vsGp-wpdEdgMypSR4fdplMHnmh I'm a Bitch I'm a Lover--Meredith Brooks I Am What I Am--from La Cage aux Folles Q.U.E.E.N.--Janelle Monae, ft. Erykah Badu I Believe in Me--Devorah Schwartz Let it Go--from...
05:59 pm - 20.09.2022
Social
Birthplace
Duchy of Rosebrier
Current Residence
Novandria
Honorary & Occupational Titles
Lady
Wealth & Financial state
She is quite well-off due to her family and splits her time between her family estate and the Academia Casus.
Family Ties
Her family is nobility in the Duchy of Rosebrier, where her father serves as a judge. She has a twin brother, Deiter Jaeger.
Religious Views
She is a follower of Eriu and Gorath.
Social Aptitude
Growing up amongst the nobility, Margarete is adept at navigating the social settings of the upper class. However, she doesn't always choose to do so well. Whether it is because something rubs her the wrong way or she simply gets bored, she does have a tendency to get herself into trouble with a wrong word or turn of phrase.
Mannerisms
She moves her hands and fingers frequently as she speaks and often tilts her head as though listening to something that isn't there.
Speech
Her speech tends to be cultured and her tone warm and rich. However, this can change quickly when something disturbs her and take on a harsher quality.