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"People become what they pretend to be."
Do you suppose that's how it really works? Could pretending ever bring anything but hurt?
Pretend you're happy when you're blue
It isn't very hard to do
And you'll find happiness without an end
Whenever you pretend
It was foolish. Stupid. Selfish. Using people to feel for a moment like she could be happy. Like she had something to offer besides pain and destruction.
Remember anyone can dream
And nothing's bad as it may seem
The little things you haven't got
Could be a lot if you pretend
Others would live and they would feel...real things like people do when they aren't broken. And she would pretend. Until, she supposed, she broke them too.
You'll find a love you can share
One you can call all your own
Just close your eyes, she'll be there
You'll never be alone
Then the pretending would stop and she would remember once again who she was...what she was. The darkness that lay barely concealed, even in the pretending.
And if you sing this melody
You'll be pretending just like me
The world is mine, it can be yours, my friend
So why don't you pretend?
A darkness she knew she couldn't part from...didn't want to part from...even to pretend.