Death of a Friend, and a new Warrior

Ryancy, Rowan Smiggle's has fallen to the dragon that serve's are enemy, he died in battle beside me as we have killed Isaac's younger sister, and he's father a great blow was dealt to them, but it was not worth the price. He was my friend and i miss him, he's talking in combat inspired me to go stronger and faster and he was a deadly warrior, who surprised many with he's courage at he's size, and i feel sad at he's passing as he did not deserve this fate. Albacur told me of my fear, and i have told nobody of this, and it has come to pass as i was afraid one of my friends would die before me, i am the soldier, i am prepared to die he should not have died i should've been stronger and defended him. He was my friend and taught me many things, how my name was too long and hard to say, how to "Pick up chicks" and other things, He learned from me sacrifice and duty and i believe we both grew from are bond. We have burned he's body and we will bury him at Faribyr to always be a part of are alliance, he has talked to us as a spirit, he told me not too feel bad but i cannot help it, i feel like i am failing him while i feel this way but i cant stop, and has given me he's dulcimer i dont know how to play and it is so small.
 
He will be remembered as one who stood against evil when he didnt have too, a brave soul that has been accepted by he's god but now we are weaker, i wish he did not go he was a source of strength for us as he always made laughter happen or listened when we needed to talk. He defended slinger when i did not, i must learn from him as he trusted other's more than i do, i hope he had children so hes line can continue and i can tell he's children of he's bravery. A warrior and her group helped us kill are enemies, i have offer'd for them to come with us to tell there story and learn why they were hunting are enemies, they are nearly extinguished as good begins to close around them we will succeed with the help we are receiving.
 
She is a Dark elf, i am wary of her but i trust she has no ill will for us at least for now, but we shall see what the future hold's but without Rowan i feel daunted, we need help but i dont want anyone else to die, only myself i should have been the one sacrificed for are cause. My god has given me a gift, but i received it too late i feel like a bastion of holy light, and around me i see people move faster, and become courageous, could this have saved Rowan? why didnt i have it in the battle? i feel this gift is too late for when i needed it.
 
Not even the thought of sila helps me with my sadness, but for him i must press on, and next time nobody shall die.