At least I made amends after that terrible display the other day. Shin-Li was, as expected, terse and did not seem entirely happy with my apology. That cannot be helped, and if I'm honest, I'm not really concerned otherwise. My passion for Shin-Li burnt up as quickly as tinder before an inferno; or perhaps, the fire died as quickly as if it had been plunged in a lake? That makes more sense. I'm rambling, but I suppose that is what journals are for.
I went to see the Shogun; a ceremionial bow and a kind word seemed to smooth the situation over. She told me that only animals from Forte are interested in grand gestures of apology; being the fool I am I decided to make one anyway. I used Glamour to enchant an object of hers into a golden rose. She seemed delighted and I must admit it felt thrilling to make such a forward gesture. I'm rather afraid this is going to become another Shin-Li situation, so I must be careful where I step; if I've learnt one thing it is that I have a tendency to run headfirst into my problems without thinking.
We should be moving soon, once Caer is recovered. I've had a sword commisioned so I may learn the Akanowan style of combat but if I'm honest perhaps I shouldn't have. It seems to have made the nightmares worse. I feel as if I'm frayed string with only a single thread holding true.