Two things I learned from the void.
One: If it comes to it, I can do this myself. I can choose to be the main character and save this world. The price is everything and everyone I love. The greatest net positive. I could pay it but it would destroy me.
Two: That path is to be avoided at all costs. I am not meant to do it by myself. I help my friends as well as I can and trust them. I keep them from their fears and stand to protect them. I will be the sidekick.
That is what I've been doing so far anyway. I didn't go to the void for Oleanna. I did it for Cal. Because she asked me to and because I see so much of her in Oleanna. I guess, I wanted to prove that, even if she becomes like Apalae or like Telfara, we can still get her back and save her.
I promised Grerv to not leave and forget him. Still, something that Regis and Brinx, out of all the people, said resonated with me. The longing for a boring life, a normal life. Sometimes I feel like they forget that these lives are equally important.