We had the honor of meeting the Winter Queen. An entrance to her realm was placed here in this godsforsaken jungle and it allowed me, and by extension, the others, in. I had the opportunity to see snow again, and pine trees. The queen and her Eladrin brought me directly into her court where I was invited to speak with and learn from them. This is the first time since the early years of my apprenticeship that I have met anyone with enough knowledge to truly teach me. The fey are true immortals, they need never worry about death and so their access to knowledge is nearly unlimited.
I want that. I want for my people to have that. To never again mourn and to be able to discover all there is to know.
I will make it happen. My work is starting to show real progress and when it is finished I will have stopped death. I will have made up for my mistake. I will be allowed to return home.
I want to go home.