Old friends and new leads

Haven't touched this journal in over a year. I guess it's easy to forget when you don't have Daar around you constantly, reminding you of good it is for your mind to write down your thoughts. I guess she's right, though. Still I enjoy writing as much as I enjoy reading.
 
This past year have been... interesting. Jay and her, uhm, tutor (a paladin of Tyr whose name escapes me for the moment, I blame the wine) accompanied me to Luskan. I told her about my experience on board Astarte. and they agreed to help me carry out some Justice. I have now robbed a few men of their family jewels and some pride and dignity. Feels good. It was kinder than what Denyeses would do if he knew.
 
Speaking of I spent some time home at court. I still see it as home, somehow. I know I only spent two years there, but it still feels like a lifetime. Or not, I don't know. The more time I spend away the less certain I feel. But it was good to be back. It was strange and familiar at the same time. But it felt good, I think, with all the attention. The big party he threw for me was spectacular, although exhausting. I guess I don't get enough practice.
 
I also spent a lot of time with mother. It's really nice seeing her and Keng together. He seems like a truly good guy, and she is so happy around him I'm almost jealous. Of what, I do not know. Of her happiness, or of her having her lover close? Ah well, I guess it doesn't matter now.
 
We got an invitation from Daar to attend a concert with her and her brother in Baldur's Gate. Why she wanted to hold a concert in that shithole beats me, but of course we (me, mother and Keng) had to go. I thought it a good excuse to look for Leah, and to make a long story short, I found her. She was completely paranoid and would barely talk to me. I thought she had lost her mind and convinced her to come with me to a temple to try to restore her. That was a well invested fortune; she calmed down considerably and could tell me her story. She told me captain Lodelock had a job to transport a dragon mask in secret. He had gotten cold feet and turned around to return it when the storm hit us. That is troubling enough on its own, but she also claimed she saw a blue dragon in the clouds. I don't believe one second that was a coincidence. That scaly lizard bitch is responsible for the death of my crew!
 
I don't know how to deal with this information. I'm so angry I could throw a fit, break windows, tables, small towns... But all this brings up the grief like it was fresh. I don't think the others noticed me crying. I miss Hardhu so much. He would hug me and reason with me, and make me be able to make sense of all these feelings and turn them to something useful. But he's long gone, only bones on the bottom of the sea... He always thought he would end his days on the sea...
 
After the concert, which was lovely, and Daar was as splendid as always, we were invited to some rich bloke who just happened to have information on the dragon masks. I don't trust him in the slightest, but he told us a dragon mask had been smuggled into the city, an ancient green dragon have ruined a village in the vicinity of the city, and a blue dragon has been spotted as well. So of course we set off in the direction of the village.