The Unexpected
I haven't slept in days.
I tried, believe me I did. I wrote a letter to my family telling them I was okay, and it was probably the first time I had to lie to them in a long time. I didn't want them to worry. I was there not only for me, but for them, and if I showed any sign of trouble, my mother would immediately send for me. She's a very stubborn beast (exactly where I got it from), and I know she doesn't want to lose another family member to the darkness, whether it be physically or mentally. And I am definitely in the latter portion.
What's extraordinary about everything that's happened is how little I've responded to it. After my battle with Garnet, I admit my willpower was shaken. And this was despite me KNOWING that if I participated in this tournament, that I would be at a complete disadvantage. I came to Ioth to learn magic, as I relied more on my brute strength. After battling Cuper, using only what I had, I had more faith in my abilities. But after encountering Noir? No. It wasn't the same of losing that got to me. It was the shame that I didn't expect my mentality to be so open, so fragile. The idea of being controlled in such a way instilled a terror in me I couldn't even describe. I didn't know how to react.
And with Sven's "betrayal" and the Kisjan fighting to find a leader, I have still decided to fight on in a way I knew how. I found joy in the simple things. I continued to cook. While journeying into the Undercroft with my friends, I was able to mentally store a new recipe for a roast dinner. Instead of barging into battle, I sat back and watched. I listened. And learned. I realized that I didn't have to ALWAYS save everyone, that sometimes you need to watch closely what is happening. Impulsiveness only got me so far, and looking back, I knew I was just blinded by all the insanity that happened so far that I couldn't even begin to figure out how to heal. Truthfully, I don't think I have still.
So again, the simple things. New recipes. New flavors. New magics. I know I may not be nearly as skilled as Garnet or anyone else with her background. But that was the lesson I learned. A rather simple one, really: the best offense is a good defense. I learned more skills and magic in order to defend myself rather than attacking all the time. I admit I feel slightly ashamed as this lesson was the very reason I wanted to attend Ioth in the first place, and I almost forgot about it.
And then something weird happened. I was at my desk, scribbling, the sky darker than ever before. Then I heard the groans. The cries. My heart froze. I calmly took another bite from my plate of meat pies and peeked out my door. I saw Hilde rush towards Aoife's room. I began to follow, but I had a feeling that the same pies I was using to calm my racing brain were gonna be useful here. I stuffed them into a container and made my way out into the hallway.
WHAM. I hit an invisible force and the container flew out of my hand. Thankfully, my pies didn't fall out and I was able to "see" one of my classmates, Slaag, in front of me. Well, it's more like I heard them; they were trapped in the hell that seems to be surrounding me. I comically found their mouth and fed them a pie. They were calmer, but the hell didn't ease. It's as if they were staring down a demon itself, but the drugs prevented them from reacting in any other way than coolly. Close enough. I tried to feed as many people as I could, and yet the nightmare seems to continue. Aoife and Hilde explained to me what happened, and I processed just enough in order to keep helping people. If I got deeper into what happened, if I went there, I would go feral. I have grown tired of these events, tired of everything happening and I just want the apocalypse to just stop toying with us and face us so we can deal with it head on instead of these horrible games.
I'm this close from just letting the rage take over. If it wasn't for the pies, I would have. I should go and find Cuper and see if he has anything...stronger.
Threnody's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Dawn of the Fourth Year
08 Dec 2021 07:56:19
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The Intricacies of Magic
08 Jan 2022 11:53:37
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"Use Your Head"
10 Jan 2022 05:18:14
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The Lessons I Refused to Learn
20 Jan 2022 01:04:02
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The Unexpected
30 Mar 2022 08:09:06
08 Dec 2021 07:56:19
08 Jan 2022 11:53:37
10 Jan 2022 05:18:14
20 Jan 2022 01:04:02
30 Mar 2022 08:09:06
The major events and journals in Threnody's history, from the beginning to today.
The Impromptu Party
04:30 pm - 22.12.2022The Unexpected
I haven't slept in days. I tried, believe me I did. I wrote a letter to my family telling them I was okay, and it was probably the first time I had to lie to them in a long time. I didn't want them to worry. I was there not only for me, but for them, a...
08:09 pm - 30.03.2022It's been a while since I updated. My mind has been all over the place and I can't seem to focus. But it's time to play catch up today. Get ready.
6861The Lessons I Refused to Learn
I nearly gave up yesterday. I woke up with the bright sun shining in my face, mildly warm from my thick blankets. I struggled to figure out what I was missing as I played with my father's fang at the base of my neck. Maybe I was asking him for guidance...
01:04 am - 20.01.2022I'm home. But this is far from over.
6861"Use Your Head"
The first thing my father taught me was "Use your head." I was puzzled. Use your head? My little mind was confused. I believed hunting was about strength and skill. It was the first time I ever felt anxiety; but I couldn't describe it at the time. It w...
05:18 pm - 10.01.2022I don't regret any of the risks I take. If I did, I'd never get anything done. Now it's time to come back home.
6861The Intricacies of Magic
A lot of people look at me and it's fair for them to see me as a brute. All brawl, no brain. I get it; I've gotten those looks since I was younger. You can't really get by in society, growing at a rapid pace, watching your snout elongate and your heigh...
11:53 pm - 08.01.2022I'm currently with Sven and I can barely keep it together. I haven't felt this way since my father died--and it shows. It used to be so black and white with me. "Just do the right thing." And it was so simple. Now I feel foolish; seeing how complicated things have gotten; all because I wanted to do the right thing. I miss Hilde. I miss Eva. I miss Aoife. I hope the recipes I left behind give them solace. It's only this thought and my sheer willpower that's preventing me from running away.
6861Year five is upon us and I admit I am a little bit anxious. I chose the History & Tactics of Battle & Warfare elective so I can add more dimension to my fighting skillset, but I can feel my insecurities creeping up on me again. Why? I can usually face things with my head held high, but this is different now. I can only take a deep breath and hope to do my best. Maybe a calming roast dinner will help calm my nerves.
6861Planning tonight's dinner is very difficult with everything going on, but it's one of the few times where I can find peace. I hope that Hilde takes my words to heart and realize that friends need no transactions--only love and care.
6861Electives by Year
First Year -- Arts & Crafts Second Year -- Elemental Studies Third Year -- Supernatural Philosophy Fourth Year -- Advanced Elemental Studies...
03:57 am - 02.12.2021The list of amazing people following the adventures of Threnody.
Social
Current Residence
The Grove
Contacts & Relations
Best friends and protector of Hilde, especially after her 4th-year transfer to The Grove. Affiliated with the Kisjan despite her general neutral stance on politics (this decision was mainly influenced by the death of her father). Has a minor, somewhat one-sided rivalry with Athalor due to his dishonorable reputation and his classist attitude.
She is also friendly with Meagle, Aoife, and Evamia, the latter she requested as a roommate in Year 4 due to her attempt to tame her normally solitary nature.
Honorary & Occupational Titles
Barbadian of the Dunes
Wealth & Financial state
Threnody isn't extremely wealthy, but has sold and traded her hunting acquisitions to allow her family a somewhat comfortable nomadic life. Her mother's traveling garden has provided abundant fruits, vegetables, herbs, and spices for Threnody to sell in markets, along with Threnody's fish and meat.
She much prefers to share what money she does have with others when she has finished taking care of her and her family's needs.
Social Aptitude
Threnody is very friendly despite her beastly looks. Her background from a such a large, tightknit family gives her the ability to be comfortable with large groups of people--an ability that has eased any stage fright when it comes to her dancing. She is more than happy to teach what she knows to whomever shows a genuine interest; her competitive nature only shows when she is fighting.
Mannerisms
She tends to snap furiously when she is nervous in order to literally "snap" herself out of it.
Hobbies & Pets
Threnody loves to cook, preferring to cook for others instead of herself due to the large portions she provides. When she isn't cooking, she is reading up on what she can regarding elemental magic, practicing her calligraphy, and dancing. She also enjoys a good sparring match with anyone who challenges her, as she does not consider any opponent unworthy of her time.
Speech
Threnody has a deep, soothing voice that is accented with subtle growling.