Dear Diary, today was terrible. I had a job, it was a secret job to arrest more of those Black Sun's.... but who we arrested weren't the Black Suns. They were people in place of the people we were supposed to catch. This makes me nervous. I am to stay hidden but if I keep getting caught up on with this wouldn't I be found out? I know that my mentor and my maternal Aunts are doing their best against my paternal Uncles. I wish I knew Verdant was safe... I'm worried that I might compromise him. I can't write her... she said that the channels aren't compromised but I shouldn't write until a new line is established. I need to make sure Feathers stays safe because it would be too hard to train a new familiar... I don't want to have to manually re-establish how to stow items in caches and... teaching him that took me a whole month. My tummy hurts...
I am finding it easier to ensure that I eat properly. I haven't gained weight like she has asked but I am trying... At least I'm not starving myself anymore. I understand it's the lack of control that makes me do that... and sometimes I feel like... no. I won't. It makes it so much harder for her if she has to hang back and babysit me due to my health. If I can stay healthy then she has more time to help my Aunties. I have to be strong. I have to stay healthy... but adventuring isn't a healthy occupation.. I wish there was another way for me to make money.
OOC: Her whole diary is written in Drudic. I don't remember if I put that disclaimer anywhere... Her sketches and some of notes for them are in common (usually descriptions, what color green etc.)