Notes and Crap (entry thirty-five)

by Eligius Yami

In light of recent events... I don't even know where to start. Just as I think I'm finally past the entire bloodline problems of mine, it comes back to rear its ugly head to remind me I'm the spawn of a terrible demon, this time with people trying to kill me!! Every single time!! If it were not for the friends around me, I would have simply put an end to what I thought at the time was the wretched life of faceless assassins, instead I find out these skilled killers are blackmailed, a family's own mother hostage if they didn't comply. It seemed my fury nonetheless scared them to the point of surrender. I am more than a mere "Weapon of War" as they put as a label so easily upon me; however as much as it pains me to reflect, they have a point. The second you went down by poison Novia, I flew into a fury that stopped time, shook the earth, and scorched the very air in a blazing fire by my hand. Such raw destruction in mere seconds, but I ask what would you have done in the same situation, given everything I have done and been through? I pray that I made the right choice, sparing their lives, I doubt their mother will share their fate though, given that she's a hostage doomed to die if they failed.

This does make me have conflicting thoughts though Novia, am I just a tool of war, a Manto who can raze a countryside at the snap of a finger? I refuse to believe the worths entirely, but the thought of it eats away at the back of my head. All the training, all the meditation, inner reflection and change I have done meant nothing to Sazuman. That is not the man who I want to be, a man stuck in the past such as he will never be able to forge his own future. I believe myself better Novia, I take the path of harmony of my bloodlines, two halves of a whole in perfect harmony as a Sovereign Dragon would. I will march forth down my own path, that of the Dragon, shedding away the heritage of the past, making it my identity; a foolish gesture I have done in my formative years. The Manto Clan will always be apart of me, just as Shizune's holy name is, but never again will I let it define me. I shall embrace both, and use them and more to forge my own destiny. That destiny shall be purging the Crystalline Graveyard once and for all.

Note: *various notes for getting a tattoo of the Sovereign dragon for his back and right arm*

More Notes: *writing down how much it'd cost to get a nice silken kimono of the Sovereign dragon, and later cursing about the 3,000 gold tails lost from the royal guard. He swears revenge, but has no idea how, so he takes the loss. Notes he still plans to make a grand entrance as a dragon every so often*

[Various arcane practices in the month and a half, learning the Spells Release the Hounds (Foxes) (by calling upon Shizune for aid), Elemental Assessor (for the need of figuring out weaknesses of creatures), and mastering the fabled power that Aka Manto held in his prime, that of Fire Storm, and pushed it further, thus perfecting it into his own style.]

Eligius Yami

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