Session: May 6th & 13th, 2024

Technically...most things went according to plan. But we're almost near the end of it and I feel surprisingly empty. I suppose I should back up though.
 
My birthday party went exactly as we had hoped it would. Zun managed to spike the punch, the two nobles I'd pointed out to everyone earlier did start fighting each other, and the guards did indeed try to get Mother out of there. I managed to get Father alone, and gave him the bloodshard with Teleport in it, and strict instructions to use it if he felt threatened at any point. Zun went down to the basement to join Lonaya's team, and the rest of us followed Mother and Terri. Elegant even managed to Dominate Person her.
 
It fell apart a little when she and Terri got ahead of us, and the Dominate Person immediately dropped. I had to ask Father where they were, and with his help, we managed to find the secret bookshelf that led to where Mother was holding Chompy's family. Mud charged in ahead, as he usually does, and promptly threw a dagger at Mother, who turned out to be Chompy's wife under an illusion, who then died in front of her son. Luckily I was able to run in and stabilize her, but I was real nervous there for a minute. Mortalis and G'Vath'Haz went off somewhere, deciding to fight each other, which was fine with me.
 
Terri of course was very focused on Elegant, gross, which allowed me to focus on Mother. I'd had a plan. I wanted to put her in Mental Prison, get her nice and scared, and then have someone push her out of it. Make her take a massive amount of damage so she'd probably be at half her health, and then she and I could have a little talk once I'd shown her that I wasn't a pushover anymore. I told Mud as I could see him getting ready to attack, that all I needed him to do was push her out. That was it. She was my kill, and this was my moment, and just push her out of the Mental Prison.
 
But he didn't. He ignored my instructions, and instead got her to within an inch of her life. So when she was pushed out of Mental Prison, she just...died. Just like that. He took that moment from me, and I know he was just trying to help...to fell a great enemy, but I can't help but feel some resentment toward him now.
 
I got worried for a moment when G'Vath'Haz took over her body, but he didn't put up as much of a fight as I thought he would either. I thought perhaps, that he too would have words for me. That we could duke it out verbally while my friends and I destroyed him - this entity that had haunted me for so many years. But he seemed...uninterested in any of that. And instead, after a few hits, when he tried to escape, Mortalis absorbed him. And just like that, the two beings I hated most in this world were dead.
 
I'd waited 16 years of my life to confront them. I had so many words that I'd prepared, things I wanted to say...I wanted to yell at them, I wanted to show them how far I'd come in spite of them...and I didn't get that. They just...died. All that anger and pain and fear I held onto for so long now has nowhere to go. It feels hollow. Empty. And maybe that's why people say revenge isn't all it's cracked up to be, I suppose. Maybe this is how everyone feels when they get their revenge. I just thought it would be...more.
 
On top of it all, I let Mortalis take Terri's body. I don't feel particularly great about it, and I know I certainly won't after the verbal lashing Zun is going to give me when he finds out. But way back when, when Mortalis and I first started experimenting, I promised him a body to use, to see if that could make him more powerful. And he did his part in this fight - we were successful largely in part to him. So how could I go back on my end of the bargain and not let him have that? But now, he's no longer with me all the time. I don't know exactly how it works. He said he has things he needs to go and do, but that I can contact him anytime I want. And then he thanked me and left. I'll have to contact him tonight - I have many questions that need to be answered.
 
But again, that moment has also left me feeling a little hollow. I got so used to having him with me all the time. And, in the long run, I think this is good. I've made him stronger, and he's still my patron, my ally. We need someone like that on our side. But I'd gotten used to having him around, and now I've lost that too. So many of the things that made me, me...all gone in a matter of minutes. What do I do now?